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‌CHAPTER 30

30 May 1977 pm in Chuang Tzu Auditorium

[A sannyasin who is leaving says she has been feeling very open towards Osho but says that just now, as she is leaving, she feels closed and is sad that she is leaving feeling like this. Osho reassures her that her heart is open.]

That happens many times, because the heart and the mind have become almost disconnected, so whatsoever happens in the heart, the mind does not take note of it, it neglects it. It has neglected it for so long that it has become just a habit. It is happening, but the mind is not recording anything .

It is just as if I am speaking and the tape-recorder is broken, it is not recording. It is not that I am not speaking, but it will not record.

So your mind is not recording it... and you are too much in the head! It is happening – just wait. By and by your heart will knock more and more loudly – it will speak loud and clear, and then the mind will start taking note of it. Sometimes it takes months, sometimes years, but the heart is very persistent and very patient: it will go on knocking.

The heart is never in a hurry because it has no time-consciousness, so the hurry is not possible; it lives in eternity. Time is a mind phenomenon; the heart lives in eternity. It knows the infinite so it can wait, but it is very persistent. It will go on knocking. It is very soft but it is very persistent – like water falling on a rock. Water is soft, feminine, looks so weak, and if you think of it in comparison to the rock, it is almost impotent. The rock is so powerful and looks so potent, but finally one day the rock will disappear. The persistent water falling on it, drop by drop, will destroy it: the rock will be converted into sands and will be taken away and the water will still be flowing. No rock has ever been able to destroy water.

But it takes time! So the heart is very soft – it is just like a flower – but the way of the heart is the way of the water. The watercourse way – that’s what Lao tzu calls it. And the mind is like a rock: on the surface very strong, deep inside just bogus. The heart ultimately wins over it.

It is happening – I can hear your heart and you will also hear it, but you will have to wait a little. And don’t be in a hurry.

I can make you hear it but that will be violence. It can be done immediately, right now it can be done, but that will be violence and will not be good, will not be beautiful – can even be harmful.

So don’t think about that. Simply go, continue to meditate and continue to remember me. Keep this with you (giving her a box) and whenever you need me, just press it on the heart and remember me. Soon you will start hearing the heart – before you come you will hear it. Good!

[A sannyasin is worried about her mother. She has always been introverted and difficult to communicate with. She tells Osho that her mother has been admitted twice to hospital with the diagnosis of paranoid schizophrenia. The mother lives only in the past. ‘It has to do with the church and with my father; her health is worsening.’]

She can be brought out of her mind. Give her as much love as possible when you go back; she needs that.

Mm mm, that’s what is needed. In fact it is love-deficiency that people suffer from. Without love one starts feeling that one is meaningless, useless, a burden. Without love there is no hope and no future – one starts living in the past. Without love there is no communication either. We can communicate only if we love. Without love one starts feeling undernourished, one starts feeling unworthy, and the whole world seems to be against one. One starts being resentful about everything; one is simply complaining.

The whole attitude is that somehow life is wrong, everything is wrong and nothing is right. Naturally, if that is the feeling then one starts regressing inwards, starts becoming closed. Only love opens, only love gives an opening.

So in fact what she needs is not therapy, what she needs is not expertise. What she needs is simply pure human love, somebody who can again give her hope... somebody who can make her feel worthysomebody who can bring a little ray of light in her life. That you can do, and it will be good

for your growth also. If you can help somebody to break through his or her prison it will give you great insight for your own life, because you can face the same problem some day; everybody can have the same problem. If you have helped somebody to come out there are less possibilities that you will have to face the same problem, and if you do, you will be more capable of coping with it. You will be more capable of understanding it and solving it on your own.

Only love brings one out of oneself. So goand don’t look at her as a patient, don’t look at her

as a mental case. She is not – in fact, nobody is. Mental cases exist not; there is nobody who is mad. And all these words – schizophrenia and neurosis and psychosis – are just efforts to label something which we have not yet understood rightly. Out of one hundred cases, ninety-nine are only deficiency cases, something is missing, and that something is always love, more or less.

This society is so unloving. It gives great hopes in the beginning and then it frustrates every hope. Every child comes bubbling with joy and wants to celebrate, and by and by he finds that he is being crippled, by and by he finds that there is no possibility to be joyous, by and by he finds that the whole life is nothing but an imprisonment.

Then all his joy disappears... he becomes stony and hard. Then he is simply protecting himself – that’s all – not living. He is afraid of everybody. Then you can call him paranoid.

Fear is because love is not, fear in itself is symptomatic: it simply shows that love is not. Never take fear as a problem – it is not a problem. It is just a hint from your system that love is needed, urgently needed, desperately needed.

When you love you are completely fearless. When you are in love fear exists not, you are at ease with existence. When you are not in love you are alienated from existence, you fall apart, you are separate, you don’t move with the whole. Then fear and trembling and death and everything.

The society is very loveless, the world we have created is absolutely loveless. It has no value for love: it has values for other things but not for love. Love is a disvalue.

Your mother is suffering from it, and it almost always happens that the people who are very sensitive suffer more than the insensitive people. Insensitive people are thick, dense, mm? – they can tolerate things – but the people who are sensitive are immediately paralysed because of their sensitivity.

She must be a sensitive woman.

She wanted to really be in love... she wanted to be loved and she wanted to love, and somehow that has not happened.

If she were thick she would have tolerated it, she would continue as normal, but she broke her neck in it – she was sensitive. And now at the age of fifty-five all hope has disappeared; life is almost finished.

So bring hope to her again. Go, and be very loving.

The first thing is not to communicate anything but just to be loving. Hold hands, hug her, just sit by her side, listen to music, meditate, and after a few days – seven, eight days of your loving – you will see that she is opening, the bud is opening... and she will start communicating.

When she starts communicating talk about meditations, about sannyas; talk about what has happened to you, what is happening here. Play some tapes to her, read some book to her and by and by, persuade her to meditate.

If she can dance things will immediately change. Put on music, start dancing. Dance is infectious: if you start dancing and doing Nataraj, she will start feeling something. And if you feel that she is getting ready for it, sometimes invite a few more sannyasins to your home; do a meditation. Let her be just there... Let the meditative energy fall on her.

My feeling is that she will be able to come out of it. Work is needed, mm? and it can be done – try it!

[A sannyasin says he has been on drugs for seven years and only stopped taking them three months ago. Since then he has been feeling really vulnerable and very insecure]

This is good; to be vulnerable is good. To be vulnerable means to be available – to be available to love, to be available to prayer, to be available to god! Yes, insecurity is good. Security is dead. Life is insecure, because life is always dancing with death – it has to be insecure! Only death is secure. It never dances with life. Death is separate, apart. Life is together with death. So if somebody tries too much to become secure, he becomes that much more dead. It is in the same proportion: death and security are in the same proportion. If you want to be one hundred percent secure you have to be in your grave.

To be alive is to be in danger; anything can happen. The more alive you are, the more danger there is. If you want to live one hundred percent totally, you will have to live one hundred percent in danger, in risk. That’s what is happening.very good.

Those drugs were creating a dead wall around you.drugs are deadening, mm? You are becoming

more sensitive – and fear will come, so don’t escape into your old trick.

[The sannyasin says: I don’t feel like escaping into drugs anymoreThe groups really make me

feel good in the daytime but in the evening when the awareness goes, my mind wants to escape with anything – a bottle of beer. Should I fight that or should I drink one or two bottles of beer in the evening?]

Beer is nothing to be worried about, mm? Beer you can take, and there is no need to fight with it because if you fight too much, then there is again danger.

Beer is okay – that much can be continued right now, but by and by slowly reduce it. From two bottles come to one, then to half. Then mix water in with it, mm? Slowly reduce it – there is no need to be drastic.

And then I will give you something. When you have come to drink just water I will give you something. through magic you make the water, beer, and drink it!

That miracle can be done – the water becomes wine and you can drink it, mm? (chuckling) But don’t show the trick to anybody else, mm?

[A sannyasin said that he was unable to do any of the visualisation exercises in the hypnotherapy group.]

You are an anti-poet – but there are such peoplebut they are good people – nothing to be worried

about, mm?

There are two types of people: people who are eye-centred; they can visualise easily – and people who are ear-centred; they cannot visualise easily. But the ear-centred people are more musical. They can listen to sounds more easily, they can remember sound more easily than pictures; pictures are difficult for them.

But the whole humanity is divided into two types. Plato, who was very much against poets, must have been your type. In his ‘republic’ he said, ‘We will not allow any poets in the city, we will debar them. They are not allowed to be in the city: they are destructive people, dreamy people. They are not realistic enough.’

... Just accept it, there is nothing wrong in it, mm? your line will be more through the ear.

And there is a problem because all the languages are dominated too much by the eye-centred people. The ear-centred people have not dominated the world – they are more feminine – and the reason is that the ear is a feminine instrument. It simply receives, it cannot project. The eye is more male: it projects. The ear cannot do anything: if I am saying something the ear cannot do anything to it. The ear is just receptive, a passivity, just a hole. The eye is very very active.

So the eye is male and the ear is female. Humanity has been male-dominated and as a consequence the eye has dominated. That’s why in all the languages we have words like ‘seer’. When somebody attains to god we call him a ‘seer’. Why? – because the eye has dominated too much.

You come here to visit me and it is called ‘darshan’: ‘darshan’ means to see, not to hear. In India, philosophy is called darshan – the way to see. In all the languages of the world the eye is too dominant.

There have been people who have reached to truth through the ear – for example, Mohammed: he heard god. Old jewish prophets heard god. It was a hearing, god talked to them; they heard his voice. They must have been ear-oriented people... but such people have not dominated the world; the ear is a repressed organ.

The eye-centred have dominated eighty percent; the ear-centred people only twenty, so an ear- dominated person feels a little inadequate. He starts feeling that he is in the minority, he starts feeling that something is wrong in him. Nothing is wrong. You have to work through the ear.

If you really want to visualise something you have to visualise through the ear, not through the eye. For example, if you want to remember me, rather than visualising my picture it will be easier for you to visualise my sound. Just like a blind man.…

Once it happened that I was travelling in a train. I entered the compartment in the middle of the night and in the compartment there was only one man – a blind man. When I was paying the coolie, he heard me and he immediately said ‘I recognise you!’

He said my name, and I said ‘But how did you know? I had completely forgotten about you!’ He said ‘Ten years ago we met in Calcutta. I heard your voice and I remembered.’ He was a singer, a blind singer. It is usually very difficult after ten years but not for a blind man: his memory is of sound.

So next time in deep hypnotherapy when the therapist tells you to visualise, tell him ‘I am ear- oriented, so give me something to work through the ear.’ That will do the same, mm? don’t use the eye, use the ear, and you will go into it very deeply. Nothing to be worried about.

[The sannyasin adds: Also a thing about that is that it resonates through my whole body.]

Perfectly good! The eye-oriented people are very confined to the head. The ear-oriented people are not so much confined to the head. Sound vibrates the whole body, vision does not; it remains in the eye. That’s why if somebody is singing you start vibrating. You start moving your feet, you start tapping the chair... your whole body vibrates.

That’s good – nothing is wrong in it... in fact it is better! But I understand – that whole hypnotherapy group is oriented for the eye people. You will not find a single method in any hypnotherapy book which is oriented to the ear people, mm? ‘Concentrate with the eyes’, ‘look with the eyes’, ‘look at the light’, ‘look at the pendulum’ – but they are all looking; they are not for the ear.

But I will tell [the leader of the hypnotherapy group], mm? because a few people will come who are ear-oriented, so he has to work something out for them. It will happen. Good!

[A sannyasin who is leaving says: I’ve been feeling very cut off. Feeling the impossibility of relating to people. It’s always been there, but in Primal therapy it became very very strong.]

I wanted to talk about it to you sometime, but I was waiting for you to ask; then I would talk about it. It happens to people who are too intellectual – because all relationship is through the heart. There is no relationship of the mind; there is nothing like intellectual friendship, no.

To be related one needs to be a little foolish... and you are not. To relate to people one needs to be non-serious, capable of having a sense of humour, capable of being in fun and being funny, capable of being a human being – which is to be a foolish being!

You look as if you are too much in the intellect: from there, there is no relationship. Even if you relate with people you are talking from the head. You don’t come down to the senses, you are not in your senses.

So start being a little more foolish, enjoy foolishness a little bit more. A wise man is always a foolish man; a wise man has the capacity to move to the opposite pole also. A man who is simply wise and never foolish is not really a wise man. So be a little more idiotic and you will start feeling alive and that you are relating with people.

Somehow, too much intellect puts people off – they simply start avoiding you, they withdraw, because intellect is very aggressive. And people are not interested in intellect, and why should they be?

Intellect has not given anything: no joy, no celebration has ever happened through intellect. Why should they be worried about it? Intellectuals become by and by very alienated individuals. They start living in a citadel, in their own world – worlds of concepts, theories, philosophies. Then they relate with words; they don’t relate with real people.

So if you want to relate with real people you will have to become a real person. That’s why after primal you started seeing it more, because primal pulls you down to the earth. Primal is a very very down-to-earth method: it brings you back to your body. It brings you down from your head to your navel, and only when you come to the navel does that scream come, that releasing scream. Now, a scream is not an intellectual thing – a scream is the most non-intellectual thing possible – but it releases something; it makes you again a small child.

The insight is good, you are feeling the pain; that is good. Now do something, because if you continue to feel pain too long, you will become accustomed to it; you will become dulled to it.

... It is hard, but not impossible. It is hard – you just have to be a little more alert and see how you destroy things: when you are talking to somebody, holding somebody’s hand, how you destroy it. You have to be watchful, and do something opposite – exactly the opposite of what you have been doing up to now.

For a few days be more playful about new alternative. If somebody asks you a question then watch what your reaction is, how you respond. Is this the old response that you have always been giving? Change it this time! Let it be something new. That is the whole methodology of Zen.…

The master will ask a question and the disciple has to be very very inventive, he has to immediately improvise. The master may have asked the same question yesterday and the disciple answered it one way. He asks it again today; if you answer the same way you are rejected.

Find out a new alternative, do something new! Just watch yourself: whenever you are reacting, responding in the old, stereotype way, structured way, drop it! Maybe you know everything about your old response and there is every possibility that your response will be adequate, but your whole life has become inadequate because of those adequate responses.

This time try something inadequate, this time try something foolish. And just watch: if you can be innovative at least twelve times every day – and that is not a big thing – within two, three months you will see that you have started changing; utter change will come to you.

You will enjoy new things so much, new ways so much. And in that very enjoyment you will see that people have started coming to you, you have started moving with people and there has arisen an affinity; you are more en rapport with people. Sometimes a very small thing – just a good laugh, sometimes just holding the hand of somebody and crying – can be a great help, can be a great opening.

You have to come down from your head; you are stuck there. It is going to be difficult – that’s right – but it is not impossible. And even if it is difficult it has to be done. It is worth it. That difficulty has to be taken on.

.… Meanwhile try new ways, do something new. Even if you prove foolish – nothing to be worried about: be amateurish!

The second thing: listen to the other more. The greatest communicators in the world are those who listen to the other more.

It happened once that a man came to me and he talked for at least ninety minutes. I was staying in a friend’s house – the friend and his wife were sitting there with us and they became bored. Mm? – they disappeared into the house and then started feeling worried tor me because the man was going on and on continuously. They were even more worried because I was listening so attentively.

When the man finished his story, he looked at his watch and he said ‘It has been too long – I must go now – but I must say one thing’.… I had not said a single word to him, mm? just yes or no, and that too just to help his story go on. He said ‘You are a wonderful talker!’

I have always remembered it – that was a beautiful thing that he said! He must have felt that way. And in those ninety minutes I had not talked more than two minutes, three minutes at the most – just here and there just to help – but he said ‘You are a wonderful talker. I will come back.’ And he was so joyful.…

Start listening, help the other to talk. Don’t you try to communicate – first help him to communicate with you. Then you will see that by and by you have become very communicative... just as a side effect.

Be innovative, drop the old habits... and come back! Mm?

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