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‌CHAPTER 25

25 May 1977 pm in Chuang Tzu Auditorium

[Osho is explaining the name ‘Deva patra’ means divine worthiness, divine potential. He says man is a potentiality, not yet actualised. Man is like a seed that may or may not fall on the right soil, and it is only a possibility that he will grow, will bloom into flowers and will bear fruits]

... By calling you ‘deva patra’ I am giving you a certain message. A great potentiality is there in your heart – it can grow. Just use all the opportunities possible, and by being a sannyasin you are entering into the world of possibilities, opportunities.

So don’t miss a single opportunity that is available here, don’t waste time, don’t waste energy. Many people are lost because they don’t have a direction. They do something one day and another they forget about it; one day they meditate and then they lose interest in it. Sometimes they do something, sometimes they start doing just the opposite. It is a sheer wastage. They never arrive anywhere, they remain empty.

And the failure is written large on millions of people’s faces, you can see it everywhere. You will rarely find a man who has bloomed, who has come to be what he was meant to be. But you are worthy. Try to be conscious and more alert.

[A sannyasin asks about not identifying with herself. She is confused, because either she is outside her body watching; or inside and tangled in thoughts.]

Mm mm. Neither is good. To watch oneself from the outside creates a disassociation in the body, one starts losing contact with the body. Then one becomes less and less sensitive; insensitivity arises out of it.

That has happened to many people in the past, many religions have tried that – watching from the outside.

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Yes, it can be done, but then you become a spectator, you are no more a participant – and all joy is through participation, joy is participation. You cannot celebrate.

You will feel a certain silence but that silence will not have any excitement in it, it will not have any thrill in it, it will not have any dance. Then you will start feeling bored with it.

And the other thing that you do – getting lost in your thoughts if you are inside – that too is not good, because then you will never attain to consciousness: you will always remain identified with the body.

The delicate thing to understand is that one has to watch from within. You are not to go outside and you are not to look from the outside; you have to watch from within.

And this watchfulness cannot be cultivated – that’s what you are doing wrong. It cannot be cultivated; it arises out of total absorption. Start getting totally absorbed in things and suddenly there will be moments when you watch from the inside – not as a spectator, as a participant, but the participant becomes aware. One is sitting in the audience and looking at the dance. Somebody is dancing, you are in the audience – that is being a spectator.

When you are dancing you are a participant, and then inside the dancer an awareness arises. The participation is not broken, the participation is not hindered. Inside the participation a luminous awareness arises. That cannot be cultivated – it comes. When it comes, enjoy; when it is not coming, don’t hanker for it. If you cultivate it, then you will go outside.

The inner watchfulness cannot be cultivated – only the outer watchfulness can be cultivated, and the outer watchfulness is dangerous. It can create a schizophrenic state; you can become two, mm? Then you are standing outside and you are watching. You are cut, so your consciousness becomes one thing, your body becomes another, and they are unbridged.

That’s what has happened to many people: they become robots. Then you can go on working like a zombie but you will not enjoy. You will be less troubled, but that is not a value. You will be less worried, but that is not the goal. You will not have tensions but you will not have creativity either.

So tensions can be dropped easily if you want to drop creativity, and worries can be dropped if you want to drop sensitivity. Become insensitive and there will be no worry: then you become thick and nothing disturbs you – but that is not an attainment.

Remain sensitive, remain vulnerable, remain open, remain inside, remain joined to the body, rooted in the body, grounded in the body. Be the body and yet not be it – but that cannot be cultivated. So what you are supposed to do is to get into things as totally as possible, and whenever the moment comes let it be there. Enjoy it – the moment of awareness. It will come!

You are making love and you are completely lost in it and suddenly you will see that a light arises inside. You are in it and yet you are watching, but not as a spectator. And that has beauty... that has tremendous richness, because you are an insider; your watchfulness is not against your participation. But that will come only sometimes, in rare moments. By and by it will come more and more but remember one thing: you cannot cultivate it.

Once you start cultivating you will fall outside, and that is not the way I teach! No! That is the old monks way. That’s how the Buddhists and the Jainas and the Catholic monks have destroyed their lives. I am absolutely against it. Never watch yourself from the outside; only watch from the inside. But the problem Is: you cannot do it!

What you can do is to be totally absorbed and waiting... when it comes, good.

[She says that sometimes she is absorbed, but usually gets stuck, and then wants to force it.]

No, no – nothing to be worried about. Don’t force, don’t force. If you force that won’t help. Even in participation you cannot force. There are things which only happen; you can only help at the most, you can persuade yourself, but you cannot force. When you start forcing you shrink, and then something false arises... something which is not genuine.

It is natural, it is human. Sometimes it happens – you suddenly feel stuck. So feel stuck... be totally stuck, that’s what I say. Then there is no need to try, because trying will mean you are not totally stuck, you are not totally in that moment. When you are stuck, you are stuck, what can be done? So be totally stuck! Be there!

And by being totally stuck you will find something has started changing and the flow has come again. [She says: I guess I feel guilty when I feel stuck.]

No need to feel guilty... no need to feel guilty for anything. Guilt exists not – guilt is a stupid notion There is nothing like guilt; there cannot be anything like guilt. Yes, errors are there, mistakes are there, but there is no sin so there can be no guilt.

Man has not committed any sin, so the whole christian attitude that man has to be redeemed and forgiven is just nonsense.

Man has not committed any sin so he is not to be forgiven or redeemed. Man has committed many errors and through those errors man has wounded himself. He needs to be healed, not to be forgiven. Man needs all compassion, not forgiveness!

So just drop those wrong notions, mm? and start participating in things more and more. When you feel stuck sometimes feel stuck – nothing is wrong in it. God wants you to be stuck in that moment, that’s how it is. Accept it! Good.

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