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‌CHAPTER 9

9 December 1977 pm in Chuang Tzu Auditorium

[A new sannyasin says: When I do Dynamic I always faint. The last time I had a hysterical fit and now I’m scared to death to do it.During the catharsis, during the fit, I saw myself falling over the

balcony. When I was a child I fell over the balcony, and I saw myself just falling over again, and I guess that’s what scared me.…

Osho gives her a ‘come close energy darshan’.]

You are scared, but if you can continue meditating it will be of great benefit to you: all those memories will disappear and your past will become more clean and unloaded. And Dynamic meditation goes very deep. It can bring up the whole of the rubbish that is there in the unconscious. So fear is natural but in spite of it, continue.

Within three, four weeks, all this will disappear. The screaming, the visions, the hysteria, spasms, all will disappear. Once they have disappeared you will feel flowing for the first time. If you become afraid it will be difficult. And what Primal therapy can do in three years, can be done by Dynamic in three weeks.

So my suggestion is that you continue. I am here and now I am with you: just continue. Leave it to meI will take care

Deva means god, agar means a dwelling place – a house of God. And start looking at yourself in that way, as a house for God, a temple for God. The body is the temple and without God it is a house without a master.

The master has to be invited, and all the religions are nothing but invitations to God.the empty

dwelling seeking the master, searching for the master. And there cannot be any joy without the

master. The master is not far away. If we thirst for him, if our thirst is really passionate and intense, any moment you will hear the knock and know that he has come. Just a passionate desire is needed. The so-called religious people are very cold. Their prayers are cold, have no passion, hence they go on praying and go on missing too; their prayers are impotent.

So make your search very passionate. Put into it all that you have. You can get only that much which you put into it, neither less nor moreIf you put everything totally at stake then God can be

available this very moment.

[A sannyasin is returning to the West. He has been assigned a project to distribute Osho’s books there, but he does not agree with the technical details of the way in which he has been asked to do it.]

Then don’t do it. If you disagree.…

No, then don’t do it because that will be a burden on you; I don’t want to create any burden. If you can do it happily, honestly... and you have to agree.…

If you can’t agree or agreeing makes you feel heavy, don’t do it. No work is worth it if it makes you unhappy in any way; I will not suggest you do it. So either surrender totally and then there is no problem.… Then whatsoever work is given to you you do it. There is no question of agreeing or disagreeing: you no more exist. Whatsoever work is allotted to you, you have to put your whole energy into it. Agreeing, disagreeing is not the point. That is real agreement, when you don’t need even to agree. But if that is not possible then it is better not to do it, mm? because that will create a conflict in you and no conflict is needed. Be happy, do whatsoever you feel like doing.

And it will take a little longer time for the ashram to move because we are still waiting for a few things. So whenever we are moving I will immediately inform you so you can come. But settle about the work before you leave. Either totally or not, no half-hearted measures, because I would not like you to be divided into two.

[A sannyasin says: I’m going back to be near my wife, and I would like you to tell me some things about love and marriage.]

Bring her first. It will be better to talk to you both together.

[The sannyasin replies: Yes, but she is going her way and I don’t don’t to push her in another direction.]

No, no need to push; never push, if you love her never push. If you love her help her to go on her own way, even if you don’t like it; your liking is your problem. Even if you would have wanted her to be otherwise.… But that is your mind; you are nobody to interfere. Love never interferes, it never trespasses; it is very respectful.

Even if sometimes she is going so far away that it will become impossible for you to love her, then too, love will cry and weep and allow. And the crying and weeping should e in silence, in aloneness, otherwise that can become a political pressure. If you love then you simply allow freedom. Don’t

push, don’t force. Just let her know about me, and if she feels like coming, bring her. If she does not feel like coming there is no question. Love needs a great courage. This is the courage that is needed: not to enforce yourself upon the other, not to encroach, not to possess, not to be violent. Whenever we want the other in a certain way, there is violence. So even if you have to suffer, even if you have to go into anguish, agony, and pain, go, but never interfere. And you will be immensely benefitted by it. You will come to know the deepest flavour of love. Just hugging somebody is nothing, just making love to somebody is also not much... but to love somebody so deeply that you can help him to be free from even you, is something immensely valuable. To give freedom, total freedom, unconditional freedom, will bring you the deepest joy of love.

It may have tears in it but it will have a deep laughter too, a profound joy too. And there is no incompatibility between tears and joy; they are very compatible. Sometimes there are moments when you are weeping and crying and still feeling a great blessing.

So go, and just make her aware of me, of things that are happening to you. Let her know that you would like to come back, and if possible you would like her also to come, but that is your desire, not an imposition, not an order. You are not saying it as a husband but as a friend; it is an invitation, a request.

And it will be beautiful. Bring her, mm? but if she comes bring her in total freedom, otherwise, no need. Good!

[A sannyasin couple say: We’ve been together twenty years. We’ll be having our twentieth anniversary here.]

Twenty years? That’s very good! That is rare nowadays. The whole ashram will celebrate it! Love starts becoming a different kind of thing the longer you are together. It changes many many colours. It becomes deeper, intimate, it becomes more cool, more graceful. It loses fever. It may not have excitement but it has ecstasy... and those are two different things.

Excitement is almost mad, ecstasy is very very silent and cool. Would you like to do a few groups here?

Anand means bliss, avinash means eternal, immortal, timeless, deathless – bliss indestructible. And only bliss is eternal. All else comes and goes; bliss remains. Once we have known it, there is no way to lose it. Even when we don’t know it, we have not lost it. It is there just hidden inside our being at the very innermost core, just waiting and waiting... for many lives maybe waiting for you to come back home. We wander all over the earth and sometimes even to the moon and to the stars but we never come home.

Sannyas is a journey back home. And this is the right way to take sannyas! Sannyas should be a leap, not a decision, then it has immense beauty. It should be a jump into the unknown, not a calculated step. Good.

[The new sannyasin has done zen meditation for many years, and found it wonderful.

Good, it has prepared you for me. That’s why you could take the jump so easily, because Zen is an abyss: it teaches you how not to be. It teaches you how to disappear and become absent, it teaches

you nothingness. It is the greatest meditation ever devised by anybody, anywhere, because there is no go beyond it, there is no way to improve upon it. How can you improve on a zero? You cannot improve upon a zero or a nothingness.

[Osho gives a sannyasin a name for a new centre in the West.]

Poona. It means full moon. And that is the thing to be imbibed: the quality of a full moon, the coolness of it, the light, the beauty, the benediction of it. Make it a point every full moon to let the whole centre meet and meditate on the moon. And my name also means moon! This is your box: whenever you need me just put it on your heart and remember me and continue to meditate.

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