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CHAPTER 30


30 August 1977 pm in Chuang Tzu Auditorium


Deva means divine, pargal means mad – divinely mad. And just by remaining ordinarily sane god cannot be attained. For the ordinary sanity nothing of the eternal is possible because the eternal needs total commitment, utter involvement. Of that only a madman is capable.


By madness I mean when you put aside your mind and you don’t listen to the mind at all; you listen to the heart. The heart is mad; the mind is very very rational. The heart has no explanations. Its longing is pure. The mind’s longing is based on reason; it is never pure. It is not just there; it has a motivation in it – hence you can find reason for it.


If you desire money you can say why. If you desire power you can say why. But if you love god you cannot say whey, there is no answer coming; there is no motivation either. Or if you love a woman then too there is no motivation; you cannot explain why. You simply shrug your shoulders. You say ’I don’t know – it is simply there. That’s why love has always been condemned as a kind of madness. Lovers all over the world have been thought to be lunatics... gone off the track.


Prayer is a higher kind of madness than love and a deeper kind of madness than love. Love begins and ends; it is a honeymoon affair. Prayer only begins and never ends; it is eternal madness. Love is only a glimpse of that madness – just for a moment it is there and then it is gone – but prayer abides.


And you can become a madman; that’s why I am giving you the name. In the east we have worshipped people who were mad for god.


In the west there are many people who are suffering in mad asylums, and they are not mad, not pathologically mad. They are simply beyond the human ordinariness.

Deva means divine, gyaka means a singer – a divine singer. And let that be the key word for your work on yourself. Continuously be in the mood of a song. Create a climate of song around yourself... let it hang around you. Do everything as if it is part of the song. Walking, talking, sitting, moving, sleeping – let every act become part of the great song that you are, and suddenly you will see things are changing. Now you cannot walk the way you used to walk because now it has to be harmonious; it has to become a kind of rhythm. Now you cannot talk the way you used to, the old pattern starts disappearing; now the talk also has to become more rhythmic. Then every gesture by and by becomes immensely elegant and every movement becomes a grace. Soon you will see that each act, ordinary day to day acts – taking a bath, going for a walk, eating – all start falling into a pattern, into a melody. And suddenly you can see that something bigger than the total of all the parts is arising in you. That is the song. It is more than the sum of the parts. It comes out of the totality of the parts – but it is more, it is plus. It is not mathematical; it is mysterious.


Two plus two are four; that is mathematical. But when two plus two suddenly become five – just by putting two twos together something new which was not there in either pair, neither in this two nor in that two, starts coming into existence – this is something new that is coming in. Something new enters whenever there is a unity; whenever there is some organic unity something new comes in. You can dissect it and it will disappear. The past will be left there. If you dissect it again there will be one pair of two, another pair of two, but the new thing that has happened is no more there. It happens only when something is in an organic unity.


It is like the beauty of a flower. You can dissect it, analyse it, then a few things are left in your hands, but you will not be able to find beauty anywhere in those things. Chemicals will be there and things like that but the beauty will be missing. The beauty was there in the flower but it is no more in the parts. It is something that happens only when all the parts fall in tune, when all parts function together. In that very functioning something new arrives, and that’s what god is: the whole universe functioning as a unity. That humming sound of that organic unity is what god is.


When you start functioning in a unity and all your acts start falling in tune with something that runs like a thread in the flowers holding them all together – a hidden thread... It is just the same as it is running in the mala holding all the beads together. The thread is not visible; the beads are visible. Just like that thread, let a grace arise in you. It will take a few days of remembrance, but walk as if walking has to be musical, eat as if eating has to be musical; talk, listen, as if each thing has to be musical. Slow down, become more musical... and by creating this music in your being you will be doing the right thing – the work; this is your work.


[A sannyasin says he was initiated by guru Maharajji and began to do his light meditation. Then later he experienced a pain on the right half of his head during orgasm. This spread all over the left side of his body. He took sannyas and has done the dynamic which helped but the pain is still there. Osho checks his energy.]


It was not the right meditation for you and it has really disturbed your nervous system. But it will disappear; nothing to be worried about, mm? Just slowly, slowly it will disappear. Within a month it will be completely gone, so you need not worry about it.…


So start doing other meditations here but never try this one. Never again try this one that has disturbed you; it can be dangerous sometimes.

It can help a few people; it can help people who are very hard. It can disturb people who are soft – and you -are a soft person; you don’t need that kind of meditation. It is a violent kind of meditation. You forget about it. It was a nightmare! It will be okay, mm? Good.


[A sannyasin describes a sensation of shivers through his body accompanied by a need to let out a roar when pressure is applied to his spineIt is something very beautiful coming up, says Osho.

Don’t be afraid, mm?]


.It has not to be stopped, it has to be allowed.


Buddhists have a particular principle about it; they call it ‘the lion’s roar’. When the energy lying fast asleep in the spine starts rising, it shakes you. It shakes your every fibre; every cell of the body becomes infused with a totally new kind of vitality. And then suddenly one day you feel you are no more a sheepish kind of being and a lion’s roar happens. A great roar comes – and it is not that you can do it; it is not within your capacity to do it. It happens when it happens; you are simply a witness to it.


What primal therapists call the primal scream is just the lowest rung of the lion’s roar. It is the beginning of the lion’s roar; it is not the end; it is just the first step. But even primal therapy helps so many people – even that small, tiny scream. Primal therapists think this is a very big thing because they don’t know anything bigger is possible. But even that tiny scream which looks really big when it comes, which is very orgasmic, which takes possession of your whole being, is nothing compared to what Buddhists call the lion’s roar.


Sometimes it happens that for days a person will be in that roaring state. In that state he is no ordinary man. He is a volcano; he has erupted, exploded. Then by and by it settles and you settle with it on a new plane of being.so please don’t stop it!


One can stop it in many ways: one is food, another is sex. Food and sex are very simple ways to stop it. Eat too much and make love too much and it will disappearbut you will have missed a

great opportunity.


So when this roar comes the Buddhists have a certain discipline. You will be surprised.They

tell the person to fast, because if feeding can repress it then fasting brings it fast. And then the person has to be completely celibate for a few days so the energy gathers; otherwise sex is a kind of release. The energy is the same. If the release goes on working then it never accumulates that much that the roar can come. So if you avoid sexuality for a few days it will be good – and it is only a question of a few days. Eat light food and don’t fill yourself. There is no need to fast – just eat light food: fruits, vegetables, milk, but not too much. Eat just below that quantity that you ordinarily do – three-fourths of it. Leave the stomach a little empty, for a few days avoid sexuality, and the roar will come. Sometimes it comes and is finished in a single moment; sometimes it takes a little longer time – it continues. But something beautiful is on the way.


... And just enjoy this feeling – accept it. Don’t be worried and don’t be puzzled by it: welcome it. If it comes when you are sitting silently, just go with it: start shaking, trembling, go with it.allow it to

happen.

[A nine-year-old sannyasin who had asked to do a group and been assigned centering was at darshan with the group. He says: I wont my toy monkey to be a sannyasin.]


You can give sannyas to your toy monkey. I entitle you to give sannyas to your play monkey! You can give it, and if some other monkeys come, I will send them to you.


I will make you the guru of monkeys, right? Good. [The child says: And he needs a mala too.]

A mala is difficult for monkeys! You can make a false mala for the monkey; deceive the monkey. A real mala is not needed for the monkey because he will throw it, mm? Good!


  

 

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