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‌CHAPTER 9

9 June 1978 pm in Chuang Tzu Auditorium

[A sannyasin says: I felt lots of times to write. Once I nearly came and spoke to you but I didn’t, and things have worked out fine. It’s just: am I using you enough? – that’s what I’m not sure of.]

You are... and it is good. Writing is not of much use. If sometimes it becomes impossible and you cannot help it, write. Otherwise by the time your letter reaches me you have already been helped. In fact when the need arises, the help immediately starts moving towards you. Before you ask the question, the answer has been given. That’s the magic that happens between a master and a disciple: even before the question has been formulated, the answer has been given. You may not have heard it, so you think you have to ask. But if you can be a little patient you will hear it; you will find that it has been given already.

And out of one hundred questions, ninety-nine are just momentary. By the time you write them, they are no more relevant – they disappear of their own accord. One has to learn to be patient and then one can see that ninety-nine percent of problems need not be worried about at all. They move on their own. They just come and they go – they have nothing to do with you. They are just casual visitors. They have no cause in you.

It always happens if you become open – and that’s what meditation is all about, it makes you open.… If [your girlfriend] has a problem and you are open, you are open in that moment, suddenly the problem will shift towards you and you will start feeling it. But it had nothing to do with you; it is just a casual visitor. It has no cause in you, it is just a reflection. And within minutes it will be gone. You just have to see and watch and wait.

Make it a practice that if some problem arises, wait for at least one week and then write. Out of one hundred times, ninety-nine times you will be saved writing. And that one time you will be really writing something valuable. Otherwise in the rubbish even the diamonds are lost.

There are a few people who go on writing every day, long letters. They think they can create so many problems every day. Problems are very limited. There are not many problems in the world; there are few problems, very few. If you reduce them, they can be counted on your fingers. One moves in a circle and comes again and again to the same problem. Maybe the situation is different and the problem takes a different shape and form and colour, but that is just the difference in the dress. Just look at the naked problem and it is the same problem you have been struggling with your whole life.

Don’t be worried, because sometimes the question will come to your mind that you had the chance to speak but you didn’t; you wanted to write and you never wrote – so are you taking the maximum advantage of the opportunity that is available to you or not? You are taking the whole advantage, far better than those who are continuously writing. Just a small problem arises and they rush. They don’t even wait to see whether the problem is a casual visitor or is really rooted in them.

And the more patient you are, the more you will be helped. The more silent you areThe people

who go on asking are noisy people. And they think because they can ask they will be helped – because they ask more they will be helped more. That is sheer nonsense Those who are silent with me will be helped more – those who just stand at the back, unassuming, not trying in any way to be felt by others, by me, not trying in any way to be recognised. Because all those problems are nothing but devices to be recognised. Then one exaggerates the problem, mm? thinking that if you have a big problem you are a big man; if you have a small problem you are just tiny.

So people make mountains out of molehills, and I go on seeing that they are making a mountain out of a molehill. They are making much fuss just so that they should be felt, so that everybody knows they are here. That is one of the ways of the ego: the ego always wants to declare to the world ‘Look, I am here!’ It wants its presence to be felt.

Those who keep silent, those who keep hidden, those who are here and whose presence is not felt will be benefitted the most by me.

So you need not be worried.

[A sannyasin wants to be closer to Osho. She says: Sometimes I feel very distant from you.]

Two things to be understood. One: you only feel distant sometimes because you are coming very close. People who are distant never feel they are distant – they have nothing to compare with. Because sometimes you come very close, that’s why you can feel that sometimes you go very far. It is a good sign, a happy indication, and it happens only to those who come very close, otherwise not.

You cannot remain close continuously, that’s true, because that will become unbearable; one can contain only so much joy. Slowly slowly you will contain more; then you will remain more and more close. But naturally, there is a rhythm: you come close and then you go away, you come close then you go away. Going away helps you to absorb me; otherwise when will you digest? One cannot sit at the dining table continuously and go on eating and eating and eating. One needs a few hours’ break – at least a six to eight hour gap between two meals, mm? Otherwise you will go mad and you will become spiritually fat.which is more dangerous than physical fatness! Don’t be worried!

[A sannyasin says: Something happened, maybe a week, two weeks ago. I felt fever and headache and pains in my stomach so stayed home the first day.

On the second day I felt a pain in my sex centre and in the top of my head, and something like fire in between. I had spasms and felt as if I were becoming crazy or dying. It was just so cleansing.… Osho asks her if that spasm happened all over the body or just between the head and the sex centre? She replies: All over the body.]

All over the body? Very good. It was something tremendously meaningful. For the first time your male and your female parts had a meeting inside; it was an inner orgasm. You had a glimpse of real tantra. And it will be coming again and again – remain available to it. Sometimes just lying down on your bed wait for it. Open your windows and wait for it, and if it starts coming, co-operate with it; let the spasm take over.

And go into it without any fear; there is no need to be afraid. It is great energy and it comes like a cyclone. If you allow it, it will be as if a tree is being uprooted in the cyclone. But later on, the greater the upheaval, the deeper will be the silence, the silence that follows a storm. That’s why I called you, that was my feeling that something beautiful is happening inside...

It will be coming; next time it comes it will be bigger. Allow it, and if you become very frightened just take the locket in your hand. But go into it – I will take care. Once or twice it may happen that you will have fever but the fever will disappear, mm? It is such a change in the body electricity. It is such a change in the whole body chemistry that fever is possible, headache is possible, bellyache is possible – the whole body can ache. But that is temporary; at the most once or twice it can happen, and then yOu will be feeling as healthy as you have never felt before... for the first time integrated, a unity.

This orgasmic experience will give you the centre.

Something very blissful has happened – allow it again and again.

[A female sannyasin says that in the Tantra group she was told that she was too ‘masculine’.]

There is no problem at all – just a misunderstanding. You have a very strong energy, that’s all, and a very, very disciplined energy. That’s why they misunderstood it and they thought that you are trying to be a man. Nothing is a problem.

Sometimes a very confident woman can look as if she has male energy. Sometimes a very proud woman can give that feeling. It was just a misunderstanding. Nothing to be worried about – you need not worry about it. And this disciplined energy will not fit with a Tantra group, because a Tantra group needs more liquid energy. But nothing is wrong with you; it is just that you have a different kind of energy. The Tantra group has a different kind of movement, and you were not going together, you cannot. You need a different kind of Tantra group, more structured, then you will fit perfectly.

But very rarely does this happen. If more people like you come then I will start another group that will be absolutely structured, disciplined. Then you can go very deep into it; there is no problem about it. It is just that the group was not for you, so forget about it.

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