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Chapter 18 - Inside you god is hidden
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Inside you god is hidden
21 March 1987 am in Gautam the Buddha Auditorium Question 1
BELOVED OSHO,
WHEN YOU TALKED ABOUT THE ULTIMATE DEATH OF THIS WORLD, I GOT
SUDDENLY IN TOUCH WITH DEEP ALONENESS, AND THIS VOICE INSIDE ME
SAID, "REMEMBER: EACH SINGLE MOMENT, REMEMBER THAT YOU ARE
ALONE. "MY BELOVED MASTER, AFTER OUR DEATH WILL YOU STILL BE, IN
SOME MYSTERIOUS WAY, WITH OUR WANDERING CONSCIOUSNESS?
Prem Amiyo, aloneness is the ultimate reality. One comes alone, one goes alone; and between these two alonenesses we create all kinds of relationships and fighting, just to deceive ourselves -- because in life also, we remain alone. But aloneness is not something to be sad about; it is something to rejoice in. There are two words -- the dictionary will say they have the same meaning, but existence gives them totally opposite meanings. One word is loneliness and the other word is aloneness. They are not synonymous.
Loneliness is a negative state, like darkness. Loneliness means you are missing someone; you are empty, and you are afraid in this vast universe. Aloneness has a totally different meaning: it does not mean that you are missing someone, it means that you have found yourself. It is absolutely positive.
Finding oneself, one finds the meaning of life, the significance of life, the joy of life, the splendor of life. Finding oneself is the greatest finding in man's life, and this finding is possible only when you are alone. When your consciousness is not crowded by anything, by anybody, when your consciousness is utterly empty -- in that emptiness, in that nothingness, a miracle happens. And that miracle is the foundation of all religions.
The miracle is: when there is nothing else for your consciousness to be conscious of, the consciousness turns upon itself. It becomes a circle. Finding no obstacle, finding no object, it comes back to the source. And the moment the circle is complete, you are no longer just an ordinary human being; you have become part of the godliness that surrounds existence. You are no longer yourself; you have become part of the whole universe -- your heartbeat is now the heartbeat of the universe itself.
This is the experience which mystics have been searching for all their lives, down the ages.
There is no other experience which is more ecstatic, more blissful. This experience transforms your whole outlook: where there used to be darkness, now there is light; where there used to be misery, there is bliss; where there used to be anger, hate, possessiveness, jealousy, there is only a beautiful flower of love.
The whole energy that was being wasted in negative emotions is no longer wasted; it takes a positive and creative turn. On the one hand you are no longer your old self; on the other Osho - The Hidden Splendor
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