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CHAPTER 10
When the time is right, the fruit falls down
11 June 1977 pm in Chuang Tzu Auditorium
[A sannyasin says that although everything is fine he feels he is still missing something, maybe laughter.]
That feeling of missing something continues to the very end; it goes only at the last moment. You are not missing anything really, mm? – you are growing rightly, you ate moving in the right direction. That laughter will also happen in its own time; nothing to be worried about.
This feeling, that something is missing, is also true because something is missing: the ultimate is missing. Everything is good, everything is joyful, things are as they should be; but the ecstasy, that explosion where you utterly disappear and only god remains?... for that one has to wait. It is coming, it is on the way, it may come any day; it can come any day.
So until and unless it has happened you will have this feeling that something is missing. It is fortunate that you feel this. There are millions of people who don’t feel that they are missing at all... and they don’t have anything! You have many things and they don’t have anything!
They are not enjoying their work, they are not happy with their relationship; they have no music in their life, they have no dance in their life. Somebody is accumulating dead money and thinks he is doing great things. Somebody is just rushing into political power and thinks, ‘What else can life give?’... They have nothing and still they don’t feel that something is missing; they are the unfortunate people.
Those who are close to me by and by will feel this; everybody is bound to feel it one day or other. When things start settling and you are joyous and everything is as it should be, then suddenly, everything fits – but something somewhere is missing.
You don’t know what it is... how can you? Unless it happens you will not be able to even know what was missing. You have never known it before so you cannot recognise what is missing.
If you come in the room and you see that the TV is not there, you know the TV is missing because it was there; you knew it. You see your chair is missing; you know it. You come into the house and your wife is not there; you know your wife is missing because you knew her.
But this is something which you have never known, so you cannot really feel what it is exactly. It will remain vague, it will just be a cloudy feeling, a misty feeling that something is missing – ‘xyz’. That xyz is what god is. When we say god is missing, it feels as if we know what is missing. We don’t know; god means ‘x’.
It is good that you have started feeling it; it happens only when everything is okay. Then only does one feel that ‘x’ that mysterious phenomenon which people down the ages have called god, truth, satori, samadhi, enlightenment, nirvana; these are just names for that something is missing. Yes, it is missing, but you cannot do anything to have it.
You can only go on growing in the harmony in which you are already growing. Become more and more harmonious, and the more harmonious you are, the more you will feel that it is being missed, because you will become more alert that there is nothing else you need – only this something. Then the thirst becomes one-pointed.
Money is not needed, power is not needed, prestige is not needed. The thirst becomes by and by very one-pointed towards that ‘something’. And that ‘something’ will happen only when the thirst has become so total that you cannot say ‘I am thirsty’; you can only say ‘I am thirst’. Then you don ’t know who you are: you are just a thirst, a burning thirst.
It will happen, but before that everything else has to settle in a deep harmony. God is the last thing to happen: before it we have to get ready. We have to become the host; we have to prepare a thousand and one things.
When the king is to come one has to prepare a thousand and one things. When we invite the king and we have lived the life of a beggar we have to prepare many things. The house has to be prepared, flowers and incense.…
The guest comes at the right moment: whenever you are ready, it is there. It has always been there, just waiting for your readiness. Whenever the time is right the fruit falls down. It will happen.…
Just enjoy your work, get into it more and more, and this will remain there by the comer that something is missing. Good – there is nothing to be worried about. It is missing, and you have to go on preparing. Things are going well, subhadra, mm? Laughter is on the way; it will be coming!
[One ashram group leader had written to Osho about an experience during his group. He suddenly saw that everything – body, mind, feelings, experiences, interactions – were all kept going by the mind. It was all just illusory – and he found with this realisation that he could neither speak nor move for what must have been over an hour.]
Your experience was great! If it comes again, allow it... but go on doing your work. In those moments you will feel that it is all nonsense, meaningless – it is! But many other people have to be brought to this same experience, so one has to continue the nonsense. Whenever you feel it coming, enjoy it. And it is very good if you fall silent sometimes. Let the whole group feel your silence, let them be also silent; that will be a device, but don’t stop working.
And the greatest thing to understand is that one has to attain to a higher synthesis. For example, when you are working the silence disappears; when you become very very silent, the work disappears. This is good in the beginning, but finally a moment has to come when you are working and yet you are silent; you are talking and you are silent.
I go on talking and I never utter a single word! You go on working and yet you are passive; you are not working at all. That is the synthesis that has to be attained. Otherwise these spaces can become very escapist. They are so beautiful, why bother to come out of them? Why go on doing the group and helping people? What is the point? But then these people will never reach these spaces... and through helping these people you will attain to greater spaces.
So when it comes for one or two hours it is okay. but then pull yourself together, start working, and remember that the inner silence remains untouched: you work on the outside and inside is absolutely silent.
And that will give you more joy, because then nothing can disturb it. Then even in the marketplace it will be there. Even in the very thick of life, in the turmoil, in the noise, in the day to day world, it will be there. It does not need any special arrangement for it: it becomes very very ordinary... and that is the thing to be remembered. It was a mini-satori, but it has to become very very ordinary.
So don’t become attached to it, don’t hanker for it. When it comes, enjoy it. Yes, give it one hour, two hours – that’s all; not more than two hours. Then start getting into work, move very slowly, protect it and keep it inside; it is there. Go on working and you will have a tremendously new experience – that inside everything is silent and outside there is much activity.
Then the wheel moves, but at the very centre the axle remains unmoving: that is the centre of the cyclone. The centre is possible without the cyclone very easily, the cyclone is possible without the centre very easily, but when the centre is there with the cyclone, it is something of great importance. That should be the point to be remembered.
And it will happen any day, so just go on and don’t be worried... ant don’t be frightened of me!
[The group leader asks about his work in the group. Sometimes he feels his tempo becoming slower, but wonders if the group benefits more when he is more active.]
It depends... it depends on the group, and it will be different for different people. The extroverts in the group are benefitted more by your activity, the introverts will be benefitted more by your slow-going energy... and they are both there.
Mm? – that’s why I say that whenever it happens it is good for one or two hours; then pull yourself back again, mm? And there are more extroverts. Introverts are few and far between – they have
disappeared from the world; the world is missing them. Because they are missing, the balance is lost.
More and more people are extroverts, particularly people who are in your group. They are western people; they are more extrovert. But even these extroverts, working, meditating, by and by become introverts, and sometimes they too are at a stage where they can turn very easily into introverts.
So it depends – but don’t make it much of a consideration. If sometimes you feel like moving in that space for one or two hours, then give that space to the group as a device. Let them also fall silent, let them move slowly; let them keep pace with you. That will be enriching, that will be an enrichment.
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