20 Sleep makes sheep of man

‌CHAPTER 20

Sleep makes sheep of man

20 October 1977 pm in Chuang Tzu Auditorium

Deva means divine and gopala means shepherd. And everybody is a shepherd. It is not only that Christ is or Krishna is or Buddha is the shepherd: everybody is a shepherd. When you are not alert you are a sheep and when you alc alert you become the shepherd. Both possibilities exist in you but you can only be one at one time.

And my whole teaching here is that you have to stop being a sheep. The mind of the sheep is the mind of the masses. The sheep has no individuality: it simply follows, imitates. So if one goes on imitating and following the crowd one goes on missing one’s soul. It is only through the fire of rebellion that one becomes a soul. So rebel ! And that’s the message of sannyas: assert your own individuality – not against anybody but for its own sake.…

Deva niharika.It means divine chaos. And a great chaos is needed because we have become

so settled, we have become so patterned, structured. We have almost become things. We are existing in the world of cause and effect. Somebody hits you and you become angry; then you are functioning in the world of cause and effect. But if somebody hits you and the anger does not arise in you – rather, compassion – then you are getting out of the world of cause and effect. You are becoming a human being for the first time. You are no more under the laws of the animal kingdom.

When somebody hits you it is natural to get angry but there is nothing special in it. And I am not saying to repress your anger, because repression is also part of the natural. I am saying to go beyond it. Become unpredictable, and in that unpredictability you become free. Keep it as a key: whenever you start behaving in a patterned way, drop that way. Do something new; do something utterly new which is not in the world of cause and effect.

You love a man and the man starts feeling a certain love for somebody else, and jealousy comes. That is cause and effect. Remember it; drop that jealousy. That keeps you tethered to the earth, it keeps you earth-bound. Drop it! – it is not worth carrying. Rather, feel happy that your man is happy... happy with somebody else, and nothing is wrong in it. Then you are growing in freedom; you are becoming unpredictable. Then you are going beyond the world of skinner and pavlov. They cannot reduce you to a mechanism; something non-mechanical has started happening. And this non-mechanicalness is beautiful. This non-mechanicalness is what god is.

When it grows and spreads all over your being so that you start living moment to moment and always remain in the unknown, always going beyond and beyond the ordinary world of cause and effect, that freedom is god.

So let that become your cornerstone. And we have to make a temple on it, but the cornerstone has to be freedom, chaos. Chaos does not mean absence of order. Chaos simply means no imposed order. Order that comes from within is perfectly okay, order that comes of its own accord is perfectly okay but no priest, no politician, nobody is allowed to put an order on you. Be that freedom... and that’s what sannyas is all about.

Ananda means bliss, mahaprabhu means great god. And bliss is the god, the great god that everybody is seeking and searching for. Knowingly, unknowingly, rightly, wrongly, but the search is for the great god, bliss. Even trees are searching for it, groping in that dark night; animals are searching for it, man is searching for it. But the search becomes right only when it becomes very conscious. The whole existence is searching, but man is very fortunate because it is possible only through him that the search can become really valid.

But all men are not going to make it because they are not even aware. They are also groping like animals; they have also not yet become conscious. While everybody is capable of making it, very few human beings have been able to. It is very unfortunate that every seed can become a great tree but only a few seeds do. Other seeds remain seeds: they think this is all there is. They don’t think in terms of growth; they don’t think in terms of exploring new ways of life. They don’t have any idea that they can be more than they are, that they are containing great possibilities. Once this becomes conscious, this idea – that you need not be only this that you are now, something more is around the comerThat’s why there is so much dissatisfaction.

Man cannot be satisfied as he is; man can only be satisfied when he has transcended himself. Man is the animal that has the capacity to surpass himself. The self-surpassing is possible but one has to take hold of it very consciously. Once you take hold of it very consciously many things in your life become irrelevant. Then money is no more a god. And I am not against money, but it is no more a god. It has its utility: it helps, it is convenient and one needs it. It is needed to live but one need not live for it.

And sex is good – nothing is wrong in it – but it is just a fragmentary ecstasy, a very small fragment. One should learn through it and start desiring the real, the total ecstasy. Sex is the glimpse of samadhi, the lowest glimpse of samadhi.as if you have seen the light through many veils, just a

flickering of it, just a reflection of it, not very clear.

Once one starts dropping those veils, light becomes more and more clear. When all the veils are removed, you are the light! Then it is not that there is light and you are standing there, because if

this is going to be then one veil is still there: you! The last veil has yet to be removed. Once the ‘I’ – the last veil – drops, you are the light.

That joy that comes through sex is your innermost joy. It is not coming from the woman – no, not at all. And the woman is feeling a joy that is not coming from you at all; because if it were coming from you, you would have observed that something had gone from you. But you have never seen anything going from you to the woman.

When two persons are making love they are both joyous because of their own being. Maybe the other has triggered it but the other has not produced it. Maybe the other’s presence has been a catalytic agent but it has not been the cause of it. It happens inside you. But there are many veils: the body, the mind, the ego, the other, the lover and the beloved, and a thousand and one veils. When all the veils are dropped you come to the purest bliss... and that is the great god.

Prem means love, and baula means crazy: crazy love, whimsical love, eccentric love. And remember, love is always crazy; there is no other kind of love. Crazy, because it has no reason, crazy, because it is not a means to any end. Crazy, because it exists for its own sake. Crazy, because that it exists at all seems to be impossible! In this mundane world where money dominates people, where aggression is the rule, where hatred is the very climate, that love exists at all is inconceivable. How does it manage? It manages only through a few crazy people... people who are not yet dead, people who are not yet completely confined to reason, people who have a little freedom and can go beyond reason, can go on the side roads, can move in the jungle, in the wild, who are still able to take risks.

Down through the ages love has always been called mad, but if love is mad then I say love is the only sanity and madness is the only sanity. Then become mad!... Sanity is not worth while, because god comes through the ways of love, never through the ways of sanity.

Baula also means a wave; that’s why it is synonymous with craziness. Love comes like a wave... out of the blue. It just strikes your heart, stabs you in the heart, and suddenly you are transformed. You don’t know from where it comes, why it comes, when it comes. There is no way to manage it. You cannot invite it: if it comes, it comes; if it doesn’t come, it doesn’t come. It is like a breeze, like a wave, but it is a great wave. When it comes roaring it drowns you completely.

And I am giving you this name for a certain reason... because my feeling is that you have been controlling yourself too much, that you have lived with a kind of discipline around you. That discipline is praised very much in the world, but not in my world. In my world that is a barrier, because if you go on carrying that control.… It is very subtle; you may not even be aware of it. It is there in the heart, it is there in your stomach, in the guts. And you are not responsible for it really, because that’s how people are brought up. A controlled person is praised by everybody, a crazy person is condemned by everybody.

But I would like you to have a little taste of craziness... little by little, step by step. There is no need to go fast: jump by jump, step by step will do. But allow something that you cannot control; be in a state of non-control. In a state of non-control the ego does not exist. The ego is the controller. The more you control, the more the ego becomes solid; with less control the ego becomes less and less solid.

When there is no control, ego disappears, and the disappearance of the ego is the appearance of god.…

[Osho initiates someone saying:]

Come here! Close your eyes. First go into the belly and feel that a great laughter is arising from the belly. When it comes, go into it, but let it be a belly thing. I would like your belly to laugh. Just go there and if it starts coming up and you start laughing, don’t stop it. Go into it, but go whole- heartedly, so that you become the laughter, not that you are laughing. Lose control and just let the belly start moving and vibrating.

Prem means love, hasya means laughter, and those two words are to become your key words: love and laughter.

Laugh as much as you can; don’t miss a single opportunity. Any excuse will do... even no excuse will do! And make it a point that every night before you go to sleep, for at least two, three minutes let there be a belly laughter and then go to sleep. And in the morning the first thing – the moment you feel the sleep is no more there; you are waking – start laughing for two, three minutes in the bed. You will see the quality of your energy changing within three weeks. You will become immensely happy.

You have a great capacity to be loving, to be laughing, but you have not used it yet. The potential is there untouched. Once you start digging into it you will be surprised how much joy you are carrying within yourself; you are pregnant with it!

[A sannyasin says her hands and feet are cold and she thinks it is something ancient. Osho checks her energy.]

You cannot figure it out; it is more ancient than you! You cannot figure it out – your ego is not as ancient as the fear. The fear comes when you were coming out of the birth canal, when you were getting out of the mother’s womb.

It is very traumatic... and the ego came later on. The passage is very small – the mother’s passage from where the child has to pass – and it is very suffocating. Great fear arises and great trembling, because the child has lived in the womb for nine months so comfortably. Never again will that comfort be possible. Suddenly he is being uprooted from his home and thrown out into the world, into the unknown and the dark. He is so helpless – he cannot even breathe – and he is being pushed out. That’s why the child starts clinging to the womb: he does not want to get out!

This fear comes from that moment of birth. It has remained there and it has suddenly surfaced because again you are going to be born in a new way, so there is a similarity. You are being born again through me.

In India we call a sannyasin ‘twice born’. Once he was born through the mother; the second time he is born through the master – hence the fear, but it is a beautiful fear. Nothing to be worried about; it will disappear!

[A visitor says he has been trying the meditations, and seeing symbolic dream sequences. He finds it all confusing and is a little resistant too.]

That’s natural in the beginning... very natural. And this place is confusing.… And that is part of the whole work... because I can help you only if I first destroy you – your illusions, your concepts, your beliefs, your expectations. Unless I take them away, tear them apart, unless I create a great confusion – that you don’t know where to go from here – only then can you go into yourself and can I be of any help. So it is a part; this dismantling is part of it. It takes a few days.

And that symbol is really beautiful. It simply indicates a message to you from the unconscious – that things will start falling into a pattern; just wait a little. The confusion is not going to be permanently there; just a little patience and things will start falling into a pattern. And the pattern is going to become a flower, a flowering in you.

So be here for a few days, and next time come at least for two, three months, mm? because it is a great dismantling work. And something is possible: I see it there. It can happen. So come back again!

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