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‌CHAPTER 8

20 February 1976 pm in Chuang Tzu Auditorium

Daya means compassion, and anand means bliss – compassion and bliss. Let compassion be your goal. Feel as compassionate as possible. Just have a feeling of compassion surrounding you all the time.

Look at the trees, but with compassion. Or look at a passing dog, but with compassion, mm? By and by you will get into the feeling.it will become very soon a deep compassion, and that will give

you a very very blissful state of mind.

Anand means bliss, and maneeshi means one who contemplates very deeply, meditates very deeply – a deep meditator.

[A sannyasin says she has been feeling so full and so empty at the same time.]

That is precisely what happens – fullness and happiness come together. If they don’t come together, then something has gone wrong. You are empty of yourself and full of the beyond. Something disappears leaving a space, and immediately something else enters and fills it.

Nothing can remain empty. If there is real emptiness, there will be fullness immediately, not even a single moment is lost. If one feels empty and not full, then something is wrong – that emptiness is not true. Deep down somewhere the ego is still hiding. So the emptiness is not truethe temple is

not really empty. Maybe it looks empty, but the ego, the desire, the hope, is hiding somewhere. You will feel very very negative, sad, morose, depressed. That type of emptiness will look like hell, and one would like to escape from it, because it is false.

Hell is the greatest untruth there is. It does not exist and that is the misery of it.

A real emptiness is always full, because when the ego disappears, your being flowers The ego is blocking the flowering of the being. It cannot flower unless the ego disappears. Even for a single moment if the ego is not there, the flower starts blooming, and you can feel the fragrance. That fragrance is happiness.

It is nothing that you can attain. When you are not, it is there. Happiness is a simple shadow of the being; unhappiness a shadow of the ego. The ego remains eternally unhappy, and the being is eternally happy. The being cannot be unhappy – that is not its nature. The ego cannot be happy – that is not its nature.

The whole human dilemma is that we go on trying to make our ego happy, and that is not possible. The more we fail, the more unhappy we become. And of course when we feel too unhappy, we try too hard to become happy. And this goes on in a vicious circle.

[The sannyasin says she is scared of getting identified with her happiness and hanging on to it.]

Don’t be worried. I am here to cut your head completely if you get identified or anything! Just be happy... because that very worry can create a disturbance.

There is no need to be worried. This moment you are not identified – finished! The next moment will take care of itself. Otherwise if you start thinking this moment that maybe you will become identified with happiness in the next moment, that will destroy everything; you have already destroyed it. Worrying about the worry, you have already destroyed it.

Just this moment is so beautiful – enjoy it. When the next moment comes, we will see. Never jump ahead of yourself – there is no need. And once you know the knack of it, all worries disappear, because they belong to the future.

In this moment there is no worry, and cannot be. This moment is absolutely silent. All worries are future-oriented, so don’t become a victim. Just enjoy this moment – and there is no other moment. This one exists eternally. Now is eternal.

[A sannyasin says: I just feel your words... they’re just pouring into me. I forget what you say. I hear you one day and it’s gone the next.]

Very good, that’s how it should be. If you carry it to the next day it has become knowledge, and you will not be able to hear me that day. That knowledge will be standing there in between. Hear me, hear me totally, and allow me to pour myself into your being, and then just forget all about it, as if it has never happened. And whatsoever is needed will bubble up when it is needed.

It will not be like knowledge rattling in the mind and continually creating noise. It will be like a digested food that becomes your blood, your bone. If you look for the food that you have been eating for so many years, you will not find it anywhere; it is no more there. It has already become your flesh, your skin, your bones, your blood – but you will not find bread.

So whatsoever I am saying you can either accumulate as bread – then it becomes knowledge – or you can digest it and let it circulate in your being. Then it will not be knowledge. It will become your very consciousness.

Suddenly in some situation where it is needed it will bubble up – not as knowledge but as a response.

This has to be understood – we need to remember things because we have not digested them. In a school, a university, a student has to memorise, because whatsoever is given is undigestible – as if one is eating stones, not bread. At the most you can vomit it in the examination papers, and then you will be relieved. Ninety-eight percent of your education is completely useless – it is of use only for the examination – and one has to throw it.

What I am saying to you is not an education in that way, but rather education in the original sense of the word. The word educate means to bring out, to bring out something that is within you. All the colleges and universities are forcing something into you, stuffing you with something, and the exact opposite is the real process of education.

Something is hidden behind you at your centre. A part has to be broken so it can become available. It is exactly as when you dig a hole in the earth and water becomes available. It is there; just a few layers of earth have to be removed, then you draw water. And that is what education means – drawing things out.

Whatsoever I am trying to do is not to make you more knowledgeable, but to make you more understanding, and understanding is hidden in you like layers of water.

So be completely at ease – that is the perfectly right way to listen to me.

[The sannyasin adds: My hopes and expectations and fantasies have controlled me for so long. And they keep coming and coming and coming... I feel like I’m going mad when I watch them.]

You just watch them – they will go. They come only because we have been inviting them, because so many times in the past we have entertained them as guests.

By and by they will understand that the host has changed; he no more entertains guests like that. In fact he is indifferent. They go on knocking on the door, but the host does not open it. Even if they come and sit in the drawing room, the host goes on doing his work – indifferent, unconcerned, aloof. By and by these guests will disappear.

They have been coming because you have been calling them. Nobody comes uncalled, uninvited. You may have invited them a long time ago and completely forgotten when you wrote the letter of invitation, and suddenly today the guest comes. You must have sown the seeds some day. Having found the right season, they are now sprouting.

But don’t be worried, just remain aloof. Let the word aloof penetrate your being as deeply as possible. The very sound of the word is meaningful – just unconcerned, watching. Not even watching exactly – because when you are watching you are a little concerned.

[A sannyasin said he was unable to open up in meditation or in a relationship. He said he just felt nothing.

Osho asked him what the problem in meditating was, to which he replied that he couldn’t keep his eyes shut. Osho said that if he were able to close them during sleep – as he had said he was – then

there was no problem. He said that if he were unable to do a simple thing like keeping his eyes shut then he would find it very difficult to shut off his mind... ]

Just try, otherwise the whole meditation will be missed. By the time you come to the silent period when the eyes have to be closed, and you don’t close them, all the energy that you have gathered will be thrown out.

Eighty percent of one’s energy goes out through the eyes. That’s why if you remain looking at things continuously, you become tired. On a journey, in a train or a car, one feels very tired if one goes on looking outside the window – because you are throwing energy out.

Blind people are always very silent, relaxed. And they are always very nice people, loving. Because they are blind and they cannot throw out energy, their eyes become silent pools. Blind people become good singers, because their whole energy starts moving through the ears. They become so sensitive to sound that they can recognise a person by his footsteps.

So you have to do it. Nobody else can close your eyes. From tomorrow morning you try.

And first take care of meditation, then we will take care of relationships. Because if you are not in meditation, no relationship is going to be good. Before one moves into love, one must be.

[A sannyasin says: I want to control the unknown with my mind... and I accumulate hatred. And it is terrible because I see it – I am not totally ignorant of what I am doing.]

Confusion is not your problem, but cleverness. Ignorance is not the problem. You think you know – that is your problem. I can help ignorant people, but I cannot help knowledgeable people – they won’t allow me. You resist me, you resist meditation, you resist everything. How can things be done? And you want things to be done.

It is as if you want the sun to come in but you don’t open the door. You will not allow the doors or windows to be open – and the sun cannot be aggressive, it cannot rape. If you allow and invite it, only then the sun comes in.

My energy is available to you only if you allow it. It is for you to take it or not to take it. If you decide not to take it, then nothing can be done. It is better you return home. Either decide to be here with me and drop this resistance, or you simply go back. Why waste time? Think about it for three days and decide wither way. If you decide to be here, then drop all this nonsense.

And you know nothing. You just go on thinking that you know. So better be ignorant please. Or if you think that you know, and that everything is perfectly known to you, drop this ignorant man. Why be bothered with me?

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