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‌CHAPTER 4

4 April 1978 pm in Chuang Tzu Auditorium

[A sannyasin is leaving with her two children. She says: I really love you, and I feel a lot has happened here.]

And this love is such that it is going to grow every day – it knows no end. Love remains only if it goes on growing. Remember, the moment it stops, it starts dying. Love cannot remain in a static state. Love cannot be a state, that’s what I mean; it can only be a process, a flow. It is always moving, growing, expanding. And because people don’t understand that, they kill their own love and then they suffer. They don’t understand that they kill their own love and they suffer. They don’t understand that they were the murderers. They became satisfied too soon and they thought ‘Now this is the thing, we have arrived. Now if we can hold this much, that’s enough.’

Love is never enough. Love can never be enough.

That has to be remembered. One has to go on looking for new pastures for love. Even the sky is not the limit. When you have disappeared into your love, that’s the ultimate peak, the orgasm, ecstasy, samadhi, God. When love is no more between you and somebody else, when love is no more a relationship, when lovers have disappeared into love, when only love exists – there is no object to it, there is no subject to it; love has covered both, the both have disappeared into it – that state, that ultimate peak is God.

Love is the way. Go on moving, become more and more loving. Never be tired of it, never be hopeless about it, because it is the very life energy of which we are made. Love should not be just a small phenomenon in your life, it should be your whole life.

[The mother says one of the children wanted to ask about having a children’s house in the ashram.]

Now it is not possible – after three months it will be possible, mm? After three months you will have a really beautiful place for yourself in the ashram... for all the kids! For all the kids – a really big place and a swimming pool and all the things that you need.

[Osho explains that tanmatra means love, the subtle energy. Love is our substance, the stuff that we are made of, the substance of existence itself.]

This is a new journey. It is towards this that you have been travelling really; now travelling by and by will disappear. Unconsciously you have been groping towards this. You may not have deliberately thought about it, you may not have been conscious of what you were really searching for. All travellers are basically in search of something – they don’t know what. They go on moving from one place to another, thinking that somewhere something will happen. It can’t happen that way because it is not a question of changing places, it is a question of changing spaces. It is an inner question. Places are outside, spaces are inside. But they look alike and the words can be very confusing.

The real search is for the inner journey but we go on journeying from one country to another, from one city to another, from one hotel to another. And they all are becoming so alike that really there is no point any more – moving from one intercontinental hotel to another intercontinental hotel – it is the same. The world has become very small; now it is not worth travelling, all is known about it. There are small differences which don’t mean much. And this is good in a way because in the future the traveller will not have anything to go outside for; he will have to go inside. Every traveller will have to go inside, the outer is finished. Through scientific technology it has no more any meaning.

And sometimes things seen on the screen, on the TV screen, on the movie screen, are far more beautiful than when you actually go and see them, because photography can do miracles. So really, when you see the Himalayas in the film and then you go to the real Himalayas, they look a little paler, they are not so colourful. They simply look as if they have been copying the film, imitating the film.

Once it happened that a painter painted a picture of some beautiful mountains. A woman came to him; she wanted to appreciate his work so she said ‘This morning I went to the mountains and they were exactly like your painting.’ The painter said ‘Yes, sometimes nature imitates art.’

This is happening! So the outer journey is finished, at least your outer journey is finished. Now a far deeper, a far more valuable journey starts with your sannyas. It is going to be a turning point in your life. You will go on moving – I am all for movement – but now you will go in a totally different dimension, diametrically opposite to the one you have been accustomed to...

[A sannyasin, who is leaving, says: I am dying... I had an experience some days ago... Osho checks her energy.]

Dying? That’s great! That’s my only hope, mm?...

The experience has been really deep. Don’t get frightened.… [She says: It was peaceful but I got frightened.]

Yes, that’s natural, that is natural. It was peaceful but the peace was very deep. We get frightened of depth. Our life has become very much accustomed to the shallow, to the superficial. Any depth and we become afraid: we may get lost in it and then may not be able to return. We start clinging to the superficial. So any experience of death is good because it is really the experience of depth. But the mind interprets it as if it is an experience of death. It is not, it is an experience of more life, of abundant life. Death is just a fiction. Nobody has ever died – that is the greatest fiction there is. Nobody can die, death is impossible. It is all life and all continuous life. We go on changing forms but we never die. We cannot die. We are parts of this universe and the universe cannot die.

But when you start falling into depth it will be abysmal, it will look bottomless – falling like a feather into a bottomless abyss. Fear is natural, but one has to understand the fear and by-pass it. One has to invite these experiences again and again in spite of the fear, because that is the only way for the fear to go. And after each experience you will feel more alive than ever – more loving, more silent, more blissful, more peaceful. Then you will see that it is not death that is happening; it is real life that is happening, for the first time life is happening. You have been dead up to now, now you have become alive, but because you have been thinking of death as your life, this life will look like death; it is just the opposite of it.

But with going into it a little more all fear will disappear. And when fear disappears, love arises. So invite these moments more and more. I am there to protect you – don’t be worried. Just go with absolute trust and surrender into these experiences. And much more is on the way; this is just the beginning!

[A Japanese sannyasin says, through an interpreter that he is undecided as to whether he ought to complete his medical studies or to find some Indian village in which he could work in helping people. You suggest he finish his studies, for then he will be of more help. Just the desire to help is not enough, you tell him. One needs some skill through which to help, otherwise one can do more harm than help.

The translator forgets the next question and then remembers it: If he changes, does the world change, does the world around him change or not?]

Only you can change; when you change, the world changes, because you look at it with different eyes. Otherwise the world remains the same, it is always the same. If you have eyes to see, it is tremendously beautiful and all is absolutely perfect. Nothing is lacking, nothing is missing, things can’t be better than they are. This is the only world there is. But if you don’t understand, if you don’t have the eyes to see the beauty and the harmony of the world, you see only the disharmony. Then you start thinking about how to change it. And if you start changing it without first changing yourself, you will be really harming it. All the so-called revolutions have been harmful. They have destroyed, they have not created anything.

So the first and the most fundamental thing is to change yourself. Out of that change, whatsoever happens is good. Keep this (a box) with you... and whenever you need me just put it on your heart.…

And do you know why he (the translator) forgot your question? You speak Japanese in such a way that I myself start feeling sleepy! You can help people to go to sleep! You really speak in such a way that it is almost a lullaby – it is very tranquillising! Good... good!

[A sannyasin says: Thieves came into my room and put me to sleep (indicates being given chloroform).

Mm, good people! Osho says. They didn’t harm you at all. Very sensible thieves! You should have enjoyed it: you should have tried to convert them into sannyas. Next time don’t miss the opportunity! Thieves are good people, they are far better than politicians. Next time they come, try to teach them meditation!]

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