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‌CHAPTER 28

28 April 1978 pm in Chuang Tzu Auditorium

Deva means God, Gulam means a slave – a slave of God. And that is the highest peak of freedom. When one disappears into God, one becomes a slave on the one hand and on the other one becomes God Himself. Looked at from the human standpoint it is a slavery because you don’t have a will of your own any more. God’s will is all: ‘Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done.’ Now you don’t feel any stirring of will within you. You become just a hollow passage – He flows through you. This is slavery but this is freedom too, freedom from the self.

Looked at from the divine standpoint, this is the ultimate in freedom, because unless you disappear something of the slavery remains. When you are not, how can you be a slave? Who can be a slave? You are just emptiness. And in that emptiness only God is, only the master is, and you have become part of the master.

So this is a paradoxical state. All the great ones have lived in this paradox, this has been their life: in dissolving their will they have attained to God’s will. Now they don’t do anything. They are simply a receptivity, a passivity. They are just a dry leaf in the wind – wherever the wind takes it, it goes. If the wind takes it, it goes; if the wind doesn’t take it, it lies down and rests on the ground. If the wind takes it to the skies, fine. If the wind drops it into the valley, fine. North or east, west or south – wherever the wind goes; the dry leaf has no will of its own. It is a slave and yet it has become part of the wind itself. There is no resistance, no fight. This is the state of let-go, hence it is freedom. And they both exist together in the sage.

This is the meaning of your name – let it also become your experience.

[A sannyasin is returning to the West to make a film about Osho, he says: ‘I’m very impatient with people when they don’t understand the obvious, and it is so obvious to me – you have done so much for me’.

Osho says that they will understand by and by; ’... that in the very trying to convey what has happened to you, what is happening here, even if the people are not turned on, you will be infinitely benefited. Try to explain it from every angle, attack from every corner and then many things that you were not aware of will surface in your own being.People are often slow to be won over simply

because they have been cheated so many times in life. But your joy is bound to convince them. Don’t be serious! Your seriousness may not convince them but your humour will!’]

[A visitor asks: I want to know if you can see my real face. What does it look like?]

There is no real face. The real face means facelessness. All faces are false because the reality has no form, it is formlessness. That is what is meant by the real face. One has to go beyond the form because deep down you don’t have any name, you don’t have any form. Deep down you are just emptiness, pure emptiness. It can’t have any face because it has no matter in it. It has only nothing in it. It is just as if you peel an onion layer upon layer: you go from one layer to another layer and you go on peeling and peeling and finally nothing is left.

All faces are layers and everyone has thousands of faces. It changes every moment. When you are happy you have a different face, when you are sad you have a different face; when you are succeeding you have a different face, when you are failing you have a different face. In the morning one face, by the evening another. There are so many faces but they are all false. The face as such is false.

When Zen people say ‘Go and look into your original face’, they are saying that if you go on looking for the original face, you will have to discard all faces and then suddenly one day you will find that there is no face left – this is you! It can’t be seen. If it can be seen, again some layer is still there; you have to unearth more. And that is our originality, that nothingness. Out of that nothingness everything has arisen, and one day everything will disappear into that nothingness again.

To know it is to know that you are unborn, that you are undying. To know it is to know that you are neither man nor woman. To know it is to know that you have always been here and you will always be here – that you are eternity. But then you are not.something is, ‘x’, indefinable.

Yes, I can see it, but ‘seeing’ is just a metaphor. I can see it because I know my nothingness, so I know your nothingness. The taste is the same because it is the same nothingness, there is no way to distinguish two nothingnesses. I have peeled my onion and I have seen that there is nothing inside. I know your onion and every onion is the same.

Do a few groups here to get to your original nothingness!

[A sannyasin says he is feeling very rigid and ill at ease with people. Osho checks his energy.]

Don’t be worried about it. Your energy is going perfectly well, as it should be. It is not rigidness, it is just silence arising in you. So when people say something you are at a loss, no words come to you. And you get afraid: what is happening? Something new is happening which has never been in your life before. But you have to relax with it. And people by and by will come to know that something is happening. So many things are going to happen to people here that people are to learn. Or just hang a sign on your chest: ‘I am dumb – please don’t disturb’, and that is enough!

But you have not to force anything in relating to people; that will be against the energy. You have to relax with it. It will change. Soon you will be able to relate again but a little time will have to be given. You are entering a beautiful, silent space. Accept it joyously. Don’t think of it as a problem, it is not.

[A middle-aged sannyasin couple are present. The woman says she is jealous of her husband’s contact with other women.]

It is time now to drop it! It is good for children, not good for you now. Children can be forgiven – that much foolishness is acceptable in children, but not in you. It is pointless. The whole idea of possessiveness is pointless. Who can possess whom? And for what? It is such a small life; why create trouble? Jealousy will create trouble for you, why create trouble? Jealousy will create trouble for you, will create trouble for him, and it will make things very very tense.

Drop jealousy, you start by dropping it. It is a good situation. If [he] starts fooling around a little it is a great opportunity. Be thankful to him: he is giving you a chance! If he doesn’t fool around you will not know your jealousy and this jealousy will remain with you when you die, you will take it with you.

It is better to be finished with it and be finished fast, because soon he will be becoming intelligent enough not to fool around – then?

And remember: if there is no situation about which to feel jealous, you may not feel it but it is there. And that is bad because it remains in your unconscious and goes on deciding your future lives. Jealousy is one of the diseases, canceric, it is cancer of the soul. So just be thankful to him, be grateful to him and go on telling him ‘Fool around a little because if you don’t do that... I am lost’.

If he is being foolish, use it! Why should you be worried about it? And I am going to make him able to drop all that nonsense soon. It is time for him too! But you start. And there are surprises: if you drop jealousy, he may drop going with women; things are so interrelated. Because if you are not jealous then why bother? He may be simply going because it makes him feel powerful, powerful over you. Otherwise it is time for him too to see the futility of it all.

But my feeling is that you start. Drop it this very moment – don’t zigzag. If you zigzag time is wasted. Simply drop it. Seeing the futility and seeing the misery if it, just drop it, with no condition, unconditionally. Because dropping it is so blissful, carrying it is such a misery. So simply drop it and never take it up again. Old habits may sometimes catch hold of you but forget about it.

And you will be surprised – it will bring [him] also to his senses. Seeing that [you are] going so high in spirituality, he will forget all about those small things that he goes on doing. And he is doing nothing much – just talking to a woman or just chit-chatting, that’s all, but that will also disappear. When he sees that you are going so far ahead and he is lagging behind, he will start feeling jealous of you.

But you start – my feeling is that you can start it. And you are on that point from where you can drop it because you have suffered enough for it. I can immediately make him not do those things but that will not help – you will remain the same. This fire is good. Use it.

[The husband says: I cannot understand anything any more.]

Thats good! For just a few days more you continue. Please! A few days more. Even if she drops jealousy, for a few days you continue.…

This you continue. Unless I see that [she] is free of it, go on doing it. It will be hard work but just for her sake! Once she is free you can drop it too.…

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