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CHAPTER 8
8 May 1979 pm in Chuang Tzu Auditorium
Prem means love, das means a servant – a servant of love. But to be a servant of love is the way to become a master. One who is ready to surrender to love becomes immensely powerful. It is not a defeat; it is a victory.
The way of love is very illogical. If you surrender you are victorious. If you try to save yourself you will be lost. If you are ready to lose yourself you will find yourself; in fact for the first time you will know who you are.
The way of love is the way of paradox. In love opposites meet and become one: defeat and victory become one, life and death become one. All dualities disappear. Love means union of the opposites. Love is so vast that it can contain its opposite too and yet remain itself.
Gyan means wisdom, dip means a lamp – a lamp of wisdom. Man lives in darkness for one single reason; the name of the reason is identification. We become identified with the body, we become identified with the mind, we become identified with the heart. This is the triangle in which man goes on moving – from doing to feeling, from feeling to thinking, from thinking to doing. We just go on moving between this triangle, never becoming aware that we are neither thinking nor feeling nor doing: we are the witness of it all.
The whole art of meditation is to create a distance from doing, from thinking, from feeling, to see them as separate, not to become one with them; to keep oneself awake, watching, but never being entrapped by them.
If one can watch oneself doing all kinds of things, thinking all kinds of thoughts, feeling all kinds of feelings, if one can go on watching, this watching creates light inside. The darkness starts disappearing. This watching becomes the lamp of wisdom.
This is your work: you have to become more and more alert about everything, pay more and more attention. Whatsoever you are doing or thinking or feeling, bring the quality of awareness to it; don’t become identified. Identification is darkness; non-identification is light. And in light is immortality, in light is bliss, in light is our home.
[A sannyasin who is leaving says: Can the psychic aberration of the mind be controlled? Can the wanderings of the psychic mind be controlled?
I find it difficult... ]
It is always better to watch rather than control. If you control something you will have to control it forever. It will become a constant tension in you. You will have to remain on guard, because if you relax the control will be gone. Control is not right and control is a conflict.
Those psychic energies are your energies; if you control them you will have to fight with them. If you control them they will start rebelling against you; they will give a good fight to you. And by con-trol you can never overcome them. They will always be there repressed, and whenever the opportunity arises, whenever you are not on guard, they will assert themselves.
Control is not the right way to encounter one’s energies. The right way is to watch them and give them freedom. Let the mind go wherever it wants; let the energies move wherever they move.
You remain centered in your watching, you remain unconcerned – just a pure witness, just like a mirror, reflecting: whatsoever is happening is good. Then slowly slowly as the watcher becomes stronger it starts absorbing the energies. Then energies are not available for psychic wandering, and those wanderings start stopping on their own accord.
When the watcher is totally into it, all wanderings simply disappear; and that is real control. Without controlling it is controlling, without repression you are the master. And then you need not be on guard; you can be absolutely relaxed because you have nothing to be afraid of.
My approach is: through witnessing absorb the energy rather than through control, fight. Fight is not right, never right: it dissipates energy; it creates division, it makes you split.
So insist on being aware, that’s all. Don’t judge what is wrong and what is right; don’t judge whether the psychic wandering is good or bad. Let it be as it is. Simply remain in deep acceptance that whatsoever is, is good, and through that acceptance a transformation happens and a real mastery arises. Nobody is defeated and yet you are victorious. That is the real art.
Controlling, repressing, fighting is simply stupid. It leads nowhere. It only leads into neurosis, into schizophrenia – beware of it. The very idea has to be dropped.
[A sannyasin who is leaving says: I know I love you so much but I don’t feel it is very deep.] Mm mm. I understand. Don’t be worried these are the good signs of a deepening love.
It always happens: when you love much you will always feel that it is not deep enough. Only shallow lovers think that their love is very deep. The deeper you go, the shallower you will feel, because each new depth makes you aware of deeper realms that are ahead. The more you know, the less you know, because you become aware of the infinity. And that’s how it happens in love.
Don’t be worried at all. Your love is deepen-ing and it is going to deepen more and more. Don’t make it a desire, because desire is always shallow. Forget all about it. It is already happening – enjoy it, celebrate it!
[A sannyasin says: I feel sad about leaving.]
Think of coming back – that will make you happy! Never think of going; always think of coming. Going is just a way to come back. (laughter) Feel happy: you will be back soon.
And distance sometimes creates great longing and great love, so it is not going to be a loss: you are going to be benefited by it.
Help my people there!
[A sannyasin says he wants to open his heart.]
It will open – nothing to worry about. Just be here with no desire, not even the desire of opening the heart. Just be here with no motive, because every motive becomes a hindrance – even the motive to open. Just be here and enjoy. Dance, sing, meditate and forget the whole world. For these few days that you will be here this is your whole world, and then the opening happens on its own. It is going to happen!
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