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‌CHAPTER 21

21 May 1979 pm in Chuang Tzu Auditorium

[A sannyasin says he is trying to live up to his new name: Now I feel very happy and hope I am strong enough to do it in Germany.]

Good! Sometimes small changes can bring great changes. Just a small pebble in the lake can create millions of ripples. Life is so interconnected that they say if you destroy a small leaf of grass even the faraway stars are affected. Life is like a spider’s web: you touch one thread anywhere and the whole web starts shaking.

And a name, although it is a small thing, is not so small as it appears on the surface – because it is our whole identity, it is our whole past. It is not just a symbol there, it has become very solid. We have made it solid, we have been feeding it for our whole life. The name is not just a name, it becomes a reality. And when you drop the old name it is a death, it is dying to the old. And it is a rebirth, it is beginning anew – with a new vision, a new perspective, a new look at life.

It is one of the ancient traditions to change the name of the initiate, to change his dress, to change small things which logically don’t matter much. Whether you wear orange or white logically does not matter. But life is not logical, life is far more than logic can contain; it is supralogical. Just by changing the dress something inside you changes.

The policeman in his uniform and the same policemen in ordinary dress are two persons. The general with all his medals... and the same general in his nightgown are not the same people – totally different personal-ities because different identities start functioning.

And man is multidimensional; you have many faces. At a certain moment, in a certain con-text, one face shows up and other faces disappear. In another context, in another situation, another

face surfaces; others disappear. Slowly slowly you have to find that no face is yours; they are all borrowed.

You are the one who moves from one face to another. You are not any face in particular. You are the faceless one, you are the nameless one, you are the formless one. But by changing from one face to another there comes a small interval, a gap, where you can have a glimpse of your no-face.

The Zen people call no-face, the original face; it is another name for the same thing. And if you ask them “What is the original face?” they say “The face that you had before you were born and the face that you will have again when you are dead.”

There is a faceless, nameless, formless reality inside you which expresses itself in many ways but which is inexhaustible and is never expressed in its totality. Only a part of it is always manifested and it is always only a part. We become identified with the part and we think that this is the whole. This is the whole misery.

Not to become identified with any part and to remain a witness to all that comes and goes, all the changes, is sannyas. Slowly slowly one knows that “No face is mine.” And when there is no face that you can call yours who are you? The “I” also starts disappearing.

Then only a certain kind of “amness” remains, a very silent amness, a pure feeling of being. That is God, that pure feeling, and we can all attain to it.

I am happy – it has been a good experience for you. Continue groping in the same direction. Much more is going to happen!

[To a recently arrived sannyasin]

Just go into group, into meditations as deeply as possible; don’t hold anything back. That is the only barrier: people go on holding back. They want to go in and still they keep themselves out. They only go so far, half-heartedly, and with a half-hearted effort nothing, absolutely nothing is possible.

The work demands your total being. It demands surrender, dedication. Not even ninety-nine point nine percent will do – exactly one hundred percent and then the ego starts evaporating. And the evaporation of the ego is the whole goal of all meditations, of all methods, of all spiritual exercises. When the ego is gone for the first time you arrive. The death of the ego is your birth.

So keep only that in mind: go totally into everything – no strings attached, no conditions, unconditionally. And great is the possibility, great is the opportunity.

[A newly-arrived sannyasin doesn’t know just how long she will stay.]

Be here! Just be here without any idea of time. That is one of the things that a sannyasin has to forget about – time – because time basically is mind. If you can forget time mind starts disappearing.

Hence the insistence of all the Buddhas: live in the moment and don’t think of the morrow. Live right now. That which is gone is gone, don’t look back. And that which has not come yet has not come

yet, there is nothing to look at. And between the two is the small moment. But that is the only truth of life, the truth of existence.

So just be here. Forget that time exists and forget the whole world too. When you are here with then I am your whole world. Then miracles are possible.

And miracles are very simple things; they are not complicated things. Simple requirements – a loving surrender, a total dedication, a tremendous longing to be transformed – and the miracles start happening. And one miracle brings in another; they happen in a chain. Then slowly slowly the whole of life becomes a garland of miracles.

Each moment brings something so miraculous, something so incredible, something so unbelievable, that one cannot even share it with anybody else; one cannot even say it. To say it seems to make it profane, to say it seems to go against its sacredness. To utter it becomes impossible. It can be communicated only in silence.

[Osho speaks about the come-close darshans... ]

Before we work, a few things for the mediums and for the others too.

The word “energy” is not yet rightly understood. It is one of the incomprehensibles. Physics talks about energy, metaphysics talks about energy, but nobody defines it; it is indefinable. It is as indefinable as God. In fact, it is a new name for God.

What we are doing here is creating a harmony of energy in which a few windows which have remained closed for you can become open; a few doors which have remained shut for you can be helped to be opened. If the energy is in harmony, if your energy is in a state of dance, the key suddenly fits the lock.

And the key fits in the lock only at a certain state of harmony, never before it.

When you are really moving, swaying, dancing, when you are not holding yourself back in any way, when you are offering yourself totally, emptying yourself totally, you will feel, you will hear, the key moving in the lock, the lock opening. You will hear the click, and that click, once heard, can never be forgotten.

Then your life starts taking on a new color. After that click you are never the same. That click is very important.

And that is the purpose of these “close-ups”.

The society tries in every possible way to move your energy to the left hemisphere of your brain. It is locked there, it is hung-up there. And the left hemisphere of the brain is the most mundane, utilitarian, the marketplace. It calculates, it argues; it is cunning, clever, competitive, violent, male. One hundred percent of the energy is locked in the left hemisphere. Fifty percent of it has to move to the right hemisphere – that’s really what we are trying to do. Only fifty percent of it has to move then the balance arises and the harmony settles and you will hear the click and the opening of the door and the unlocking of the lock.

Darkness is helpful to move the energy from the left hemisphere to the right. That’s why you cannot sleep in light. It is difficult to sleep in light, you need darkness because sleep is part of the right hemisphere. That’s why you are afraid in the dark because the left hemisphere thinks of darkness as the enemy.

It is for this change that I tell you to close your eyes, because with open eyes the left hemisphere functions. You are looking extrovertly; you are looking at the world, at objects. With closed eyes a change becomes possible, the right hemisphere starts functioning. Hence all the meditators down the ages have been sitting with closed eyes.

Women know the secret. If you hug a woman, if you kiss a woman, she closes her eyes. She immediately moves to the right hemisphere – because love is part of the right hemisphere just as logic is part of the left hemisphere.

Music helps; music, poetry, sculpture – all arts belong to the right hemisphere. Hence the musicians are here to help you. And if you start swaying an inner dance of energy starts happening. If you lose yourself and become part of the flood it becomes easier, because the ego, the separation, that “I am separate from other”, is again ingrained in the left hemisphere.

Whenever you lose yourself with somebody – two lovers melting into each other – immediately the left hemisphere is no more the master. In orgasmic states the right hemisphere predominates, becomes the master. Hence the people who have always been calculating and have remained obsessed with the left hemisphere, have all been against sex, against love, against poetry.

You will be surprised to know that Plato, the great Greek philosopher, in his vision of a beautiful society, of his utopia, “The Republic”, debars poets. Poets will not be allowed in his society. And of course if poets are not allowed then painters will not be allowed because painting is nothing but poetry in color. And if poets are not allowed musicians will not be allowed because music is nothing but poetry in sound. And dancers, and sculptors, and all those people who beautify life, who live illogically but live joyously will not be allowed. Mathematicians and scientists will dominate the society.

In fact that’s what has already happened: what Plato conceived two thousand years before has already happened and is happening. The poet is dying because the right hemisphere is not getting energy at all.

These close-ups are an effort to move the energy from the left to the right. But all depends on you: if you allow it can happen, if you are in a let-go it can happen. It cannot be forced on you. If you are ready to receive then great mutation is possible.

And I am not telling you that one hundred percent of the energy has to move, because that will be again a state of lopsidedness – only fifty percent of the energy and a balance arises. And balance is beauty, and balance is music; balance is truth and balance is God.

So while you are here with me dissolve in the totality. Don’t keep yourself separate, don’t be an observer. Become a participant, and you can participate only if your eyes are closed. If you keep your eyes open you are not a participant, you are an observer. You remain in the wrong side of your brain, the wrong side in this context, for this space, for this energy.

And don’t sit holding yourself. Sway! Be like a small, innocent child dancing in the wind, under the sun, or in the rains with the trees. Forget that you are human beings. Think of yourself as trees or birds or animals. Forget your egos. Just be!

And this is something that can be understood only when it happens to you. It is happening to many people, I would like it to happen to many more. Slowly slowly you all have to become my mediums because we have to turn on the whole world. We have to create such a great energy-field that whosoever enters it is turned on, just by entering. Just by entering inside the gate he will feel as if he has taken LSD. He has to become stoned! (laughter)

This is just the beginning of a great experiment; I am just preparing the ground. Contribute to it with your totality.…

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