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[NOTE: This is an unedited tape transcript of an unpublished darshan diary, which has been scanned and cleaned up. It is for reference purposes only.]

(Dhyan Andy means meditation and courage.)

Meditation is the art of enjoying your aloneness, the art of transforming loneliness into aloneness, solitariness into solitude.

Ordinarily you are not alone, you are lonely and of course loneliness is a state of misery. There is a constant hankering to be with the other, to be together. The lonely person is constantly asking for love.

Asking simply means that he is not at ease with himself, he wants somebody else to be occupied with. And of course this kind of love is not true love.

If it is a need then there is a motive, if there is a need then it is businesslike. The

other is being used as a commodity and the other is using you as a commodity; hence the continuous conflict between lovers.

Nobody wants to be reduced to a thing, nobody wants to be used as a moans. That is a humiliation, it is a great insult, it is disrespectful. But that's what lovers are doing, hence anger arises. They are constantly at each other's necks. Excuses may be different but the fundamental thing is that both are incapable of being alone. Out of that incapability they are trying to be together.

But if you cannot enjoy yourself in your aloneness you cannot enjoy yourself in togetherness either.

Hence meditation is a first stop towards love.

Andy means courageous, and great courage is needed to do this miracle. It is almost a miracle. It is the greatest change that can ever happen to a man: transforming loneliness into aloneness, transforming the negative into the positive, transforming darkness into light. But it is not impossible -- difficult certainly, arduous certainly, an uphill task, but not impossible. All that is needed is courage to risk, to go into it.

People are so afraid of being lonely that they never go into it, they never allow it to happen in its totality and that's why they go on missing. If they allow it to happen, if they penetrate into it, if they make it an adventure, an exploration, without any prejudgement about what it is ... because how can you make any judgement if you have not experienced it? So going with no notion, with no idea of what it is, but just entering into that space of aloneness, slowly slowly, one starts enjoying the beauty of it, because it is the most beautiful thing in existence.

But we are constantly running away from it in every possible way -- thinking, desiring, imagining, going into the past, going into the future, visiting people, going to the clubs, to the movies, sitting before that idiot box called television for hours together, just somehow not facing the reality of your aloneness. But one cannot avoid it. Death will bring it to you because everything will be taken away. And if you have not learned the art in life what are you going to do when death takes the television, the movie, clubs, lovers, everything away from you and leaves you alone? That's why people die in misery, otherwise death is the ultimate culmination of joy.

If you know how to enjoy your aloneness you have transformed death into something totally different.

Then death will not come as a calamity, it will come as a blessing. The meditator dies rejoicing. There is dance inside his being because he already knows what it is to be alone, and what a beauty it is and what a benediction it is.

Courage is a basic requirement to penetrate the innermost core of your aloneness. And once you have known the joy of being alone you can share it -- and that is love. Love is a fragrance of the flower of meditation. Without meditation is just an empty name, an empty word; it has no meaning, no content. It hides something else and not only something else but something totally opposite to love: it hides lust.

So this has to be the work of every sannyasin, this is the work, to go into your aloneness. Find moments 1/08/07

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when you can be alone. There is no need to escape to a monastery or to the mountains; one can find a few hours every day. And the best thing is to find it in the world, amongst all kinds of distractions, because then nothing can destroy it.

If you find it in the Himalayas when you come back to the world it will be destroyed. It was something contributed by the Himalayas, it was not something that has grown in you. It was a gift of the Himalayan peace. It was just a reflection in you, it was not really yours at all.

So my insistence is that my sannyasins have to live in the world and yet work silently to create the space within themselves where the whole world disappears, where one becomes profoundly silent. Out of that arises love. And when meditation and love are both there you have achieved your destiny, you have fulfilled the task given to you by god. And then naturally there is great contentment, the joy that comes after reaching a peak.

Now you can rest, now you are at home, now you are at peace with existence.

Neither meditation alone is enough nor is love alone enough; both are two aspects of the same coin and for both courage is needed, but the basic thing is meditation.

Begin with meditation and end in love. That defines the whole journey of sannyas.

(Dhyan Angelika: only through meditation can truth be unearthed.) Truth is not a conclusion of logical thinking, it is a realisation of absolute silence. It is a realisation, not a conclusion. Truth is not something that you have to invent, truth is something that is already in your being; you have brought it with you.

Everybody brings the truth hidden deep into one's being. It has not to be invented, it has only to be discovered. Whatsoever is invented is a lie, it cannot be true. Truth is already there, you just have to uncover it. And that's what meditation is all about: uncovering all layers. Particularly there are three thick layers and you have to penetrate those layers.

The first is the identity with the body -- we think we are our bodies. That's a wrong notion, it has to be broken. We are in the body but we are not the body. The body is a beautiful temple, but it is a temple and you have lived in many temples before. This is not the first time that you are in a body, you have lived in thousands of bodies. Bodies change but the traveller remains the same. You are a guest, the body is a host, but never become identified with the host.

The second layer is identification with the mind, with thinking. People think we are our minds -- that's why people become so much obsessed with ideologies. Somebody is a Christian and somebody is a Hindu and somebody is a Mohammedan, somebody is a Communist and they become so attached to these ideas that they are ready to kill or be killed for them. And these are only thoughts, just soap bubbles -- nothing much in them. You are not your mind, but people become very much identified with the mind -- and more so than with the body, because it is very rare that you have a really beautiful body.

So people are very rarely at ease with their bodies, but they are always at ease with their minds, for the simple reason that mind is not observed by others. Even if it carries many ugly things nobody can observe it. And even those ugly things you can keep to the back; you need not observe them yourself. That's how repression happens: people go on repressing whatsoever is not of their liking,

they go on throwing it in the basement of their mind and the basement has become so big, it is ninety per cent of your mind. Only ten per cent at the top you decorate with beautiful ideas, morality, mannerism, etiquette -- nice things. It is a decorative piece in a show window where you receive guests and welcome friends. But that is not your reality. That's why psychologists have to go into your dreams -- for the simple reason that your dreams show much more reality about you than your conscious mind. The conscious mind is arbitrary, artificial. It is managed for the simple purpose of exhibiting.

It is just as you make a beautiful drawing room in your house with paintings and chandeliers. And you keep it clean and do everything because you will be receiving people there. The rest of your house may be dirty -- who bothers about the house? -- but that shows more about you.

With the body very few people are at case because it is so obviously there that you cannot repress it.

And women are more identified with their bodies than men because certainly they have more beautiful bodies. Men are not so much identified with the body, they are more identified with the mind. Women are not much interested in isms and ideologies; they think these are just foolish things.

Men are very much interested in communism, in socialism, in fascism, in religions, in philosophies. The woman is much more interested in the mirror where she can see her body. And of course she takes more care of the body.

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The problem for a woman sannyasin is how to get unidentified with the body and the problem for a male sannyasin is how to get rid of the identity with the mind. But these are not absolute things. There are women who are more identified with the mind -- they must be ugly women. And there are men who are more identified with the body -- they must be stupid men, mediocre minds.

So this is just a general observation; I am not making a definite statement about it. This is not something universal. But whether you are identified with the mind or with the body, it makes no difference: identification is the problem.

And there are a few people who are identified neither with the body nor with the mind but who are identified with their feelings -- the poets, the musicians, the painters, the artists. They are more identified with the heart, the so-called lovers ; that is the last citadel of identification.

One has to get out of all these three and then meditation happens. When you have gone beyond the three, when you know you are not the body, not the mind, not the heart, suddenly your being explodes. That is meditation: the whole process of destroying identifications. The moment there is nothing to be identified with, when your consciousness is just pure, unidentified, unadulterated, you have achieved meditation and in that moment truth is discovered.

Angelika also means a messenger of god. Only a meditator can become a messenger of god because only a meditator can reveal truth, only a meditator can live truth. Only a meditator can radiate truth, nobody else -- not the philosophers, not the theologians but the mystic. One who has reached to the innermost core of his being, starts living his truth. And that truth radiates, it starts reaching others, it starts vibrating other peoples' beings. It creates a kind of synchronicity. If whosoever comes close to the person who has attained the truth is open, he will immediately feel a movement in the innermost soul. Something is triggered, music is heard, a light has penetrated. There is a communion -- and that communion is the whole purpose of sannyas.

By becoming a sannyasin you simply expose yourself to me. You withdraw all your resistance, you withdraw all your defences, you become available to me, vulnerable. And then something invisible starts functioning. Nobody will be able to see it.

There are many people, particularly journalists, who when they come to the ashram ask sannyasins

'What is happening to you?' because they can see something is happening. And sannyasins say it cannot be said, it has to be felt. You have to be here and participate. But the journalist comes here to be an observer --

detached. He cannot participate because he is afraid that if he participates then he is no more a detached observer. So he has to be just a detached observer. Then there is trouble: he cannot understand what is happening. Then he invents things, saying that may be it is some kind of mesmerism, hypnotism, witchcraft, some black magic. Then he goes on inventing things because he can see that something is happening but he cannot analyse it. Rationally he cannot find what it is exactly. Whomsoever he asks invites him to participate and that he cannot do.

Everybody says to him, 'Can't you feel the energy? Can't you feel the Buddhafield?' And he cannot feel it because he is closed. Then he goes away with invented stories -- all lies, but he is not lying intentionally.

He may not like to do any harm but that's what he really does, because he starts saying things, writing articles, books, spreading rumours that he was there but nothing happened to him so how can he believe all those people? And he is right in a way, nothing has happened to him, but he is wrong in his conclusion.

It is like carrying a radio with you without putting it on. You can go on carrying it, it will not catch any station. You have to put it on. You have to bring the needle to the exact position, to the right position where it will start catching a certain station. That's what sannyas is. It is turning yourself on and then trying to bring your needle into a deep attunement with me. Then suddenly the message starts penetrating you.

This cannot happen to detached observers, hence journalists are always going to be reporting something wrong. This is a process which they cannot become part of and hence, they cannot understand it. It becomes very elusive for them.

By becoming a sannyasin you start participating in my being. It needs a certain attunement, a certain silence on your part, a certain opening so that you are no more objecting, resisting, fighting, defending.

That's what I mean when I use the word 'surrender'. It is not surrendering your being, it is surrendering your defences, your resistances, it is surrendering your negativity. It is opening your doors to the sun, to the wind, to the rain. Then miracles are possible, and everybody is entitled to miracles.

I simply feel pity for those people who come here as observers. It is good to be a detached observer if you go to a scientific lab, but this is not a scientific lab; it is

a subjective phenomenon. Here, only participants will know, others will miss the whole point.

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(Another theme Osho has been emphasising this week is that of erasing the ego so one is a zero. Then you become a medium, a vehicle, a passage, he explains to Shunyo Reinhold.) You are no more, you have been left behind, far behind. That is the meaning of becoming a nothing, a no-thing, a zero: you have abandoned your ego. And in that very moment you are in for a great surprise: here you abandon your ego and something tremendously powerful starts flowing through you -- oceanic, vast, tremendous, immeasurable. It gives power to you but not to the ego. It gives you power but it is no more yours; it is divine, it is god's. It gives you wisdom but it does not come from any outer source -- from Christ, from Buddha, from Krishna, from the Koran, from the Bible, from the Veda -- no. It does not come from any outer source, it comes from the unknown and it comes through you. From the very rock bottom of your being it comes. It is like a fountain that suddenly erupts.

It is both power and wisdom. Of course, wisdom has to be powerful, but this power is not the ordinary power we are accustomed to. It is not power which is violent, it is power which is love, compassion. It is power which becomes service.

It is not the power of Alexander, it is the power of a Buddha. And it is not the wisdom of the professors and the priests, it is the wisdom of a Jesus, of a Krishna of a Mohammed.

Mohammed was absolutely illiterate, he could not even sign his name, but the Koran descended through him. The ways of god are very strange. He didn't choose some scholar -- and there were great scholars available, even in Mohammed's place there were great scholars, imams. But he chose Mohammed for the simple reason that this was the man who had abandoned his ego.

In Jesus' time there were great rabbis, very scholarly, great historians who knew all the scriptures, who could quote all the prophets of the past -- but god chose the son of a carpenter. He also was illiterate, uneducated, from a small village, and the village was very notorious; it was known that nothing good had ever happened. But god's ways are mysterious. He chose this carpenter's son for the simple reason that Jesus was capable of putting his ego aside.

One becomes god's chosen person if one can fulfil a simple requirement: just put the ego aside. Nothing else is needed. Then power flows through you, wisdom flows through you, love flows through you. You yourself become blissful and you become a blessing to the whole existence too.

Yogen means the art of meeting and merging with god. Yoga simply means meeting, merging.

Ordinarily we are separate from the whole. We live like islands -- and that's the cause of our whole misery, because the more separate from existence we feel, the more alienated we become. And then of course we are outsiders and strangers and we don't see any significance, any meaning in life. Then everything is boring.

Soren Kierkegaard, the founder of existentialism in the West, says that boredom is the most important problem. But it is an important problem only if you are living in a separate world of your own, a private world, alienated from existence, inimical to existence. Otherwise, Buddha says there is no question of boredom -- there is bliss, ecstasy.

Now to whom to listen? Is Kierkegaard right -- that life is boredom? Or is Buddha right -- that life is infinite bliss? Both are telling their stories. Kierkegaard lived like an island, He was in absolute isolation, he never met people, he had no friends. He loved a woman and he wanted to marry her but at the last moment he escaped. At the last moment he rejected her for the simple reason that he was always afraid to be so close to somebody.

That closeness was creating a trembling in him. He never wanted anybody to look into his private world.

He was trying to hide his misery, he was not ready to share or expose himself to anybody, so he lived imprisoned in his own world. Naturally, he felt life was a boredom.

And Buddha opened himself up to the stars, to the ocean, to the sky, to the trees, to the birds, and he knew life as bliss. It all depends on how you relate to existence. Are you trying to be an egoist? -- then misery, boredom, anguish is going to be your fate. If you meet and merge with existence, if you start destroying the walls and creating bridges... because the same bricks can be used: you can make a wall or you can make a bridge. If you start destroying the walls and making bridges, that is yoga. That is creating as many meeting points as possible -- a multi-dimensional unity with existence, with all its beauty, with all its celebration, with the millions of forms that life has taken.

One should be able to relate with trees, with rocks, with animals, with rivers, with mountains. One should be able to relate with the whole of life in all its forms. The more you relate, the more rich you are.

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And when your relationship becomes so deep that you don't feel an island, you become part of the vast continent that god is, then life is sheer ecstasy.

That is the meaning of your name. Bliss comes out of meeting, merging with the whole.

(Natural or spontaneous love, is the meaning of her name, Osho tells the last person for sannyas.) We are brought up in such a way that we even forget how to be loving naturally, spontaneously. Even love -- the most significant value in life

-- becomes something artificial. The mother says to the child 'Love me because I am your mother.' She does not allow the child to grow towards a spontaneous love. She enforces on the child the idea that he has to love, he must love. Now this is sheer stupidity.

Love cannot be made a duty, and the moment you make it a duty it becomes artificial, superficial. Then it is not even skin deep. The father says 'Love me because I am your father.' They are giving reasons why the child should love them, as if love needs any reasons. They are not creating a situation around the

child in which the child spontaneously flowers into a loving person; they are enforcing the idea.

If the child does not feel love naturally he feels guilty -- because he is not loving the mother; the father, and this is bad, this is not how this should be. He starts feeling condemnation for himself. And if he tries to love just to avoid guilt then he knows that it is just hypocrisy, but he has to learn the hypocrisy because he has to survive. It is a question of life and death for him. Then he has to love the brothers and the sisters and the uncles and the aunts. He has to love and he completely forgets that love could have been a natural growth. Now it is a duty, a commandment to be fulfilled, so he goes on doing it. It becomes an empty gesture. And this becomes his pattern for the whole of his life.

In fact, the first seven years of life are the most important time. If the person is going to live seventy years then those first seven years are going to be decisive for seventy years because he will repeat the same pattern on different planes. He will pretend to love his wife, he will pretend to love his children, he will pretend to love the friends. And the pretension will go so deep that he will not even feel that this is a pretension; he will think this is what love is supposed to be. This is love. That's why everybody in the whole world is loving and the world is turning into a great madhouse. If everybody were loving the world would be a paradise, not a madhouse. People would be blissful -- if there is so much love in the world everybody should be flowering. Nobody seems to be flowering. Something very basic is missing.

My effort here is to help you become aware of all your pretensions. Once you are aware they can be dropped. They can be dropped very easily -- the whole thing is to become aware of them, They have gone deep, their roots have reached very deep into your bones, into your very marrow. So one has to be very alert, very aware, to find all the roots. Once you have found all the roots of your false, pseudo, love, you can uproot it. You can uproot all the weeds and you will become again a child and you will start your life afresh from the very beginning in innocence, and then there will be spontaneity, naturalness.

And to be spontaneously loving, naturally loving, is to be religious. Religion has nothing to do with worshipping Jesus or Buddha or Krishna. It has nothing to do with chanting mantras, it has nothing to do with all kinds of rituals being done in the churches and the temples. It has nothing to do with all this nonsense. True religion is simply spontaneous love -- and the whole society has been against it.

Hence my sannyasins will be facing; many many challenges, but those challenges are beautiful; they can be transformed into opportunities.

When you accept a challenge it gives you integrity, it gives you sharpness, it gives you intelligence. And every challenge becomes a new adventure. We have to use all challenges as stepping stones.

But remember one thing: until spontaneity of love is achieved life is going to be a sheer waste. People are born with great potential and they die like beggars; the potential remains unfulfilled, unrealised.

My sannyasins have to die as rich emperors, emperors of the inner world, that Jesus calls the kingdom of god. Love is the door to that kingdom of god -- but spontaneous love, natural love, not a love enforced by others but something that arises within you for no reason at all. Love for love's sake, then love has such beauty, such grace, such incomprehensible depth and such heights that the Himalayan peaks are nothing compared to it.

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