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17 April 1980 pm in Chuang Tzu Auditorium

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[NOTE: This is an unedited tape transcript of an unpublished darshan diary, which has been copy-typed on to the computer. It is for reference purposes only.]

To be a disciple is something of immense value. It means surrender

It means putting your ego aside

It means a heart-to-heart communion With the master. It is a love affair.

It is not a question of being convinced By the ideas of the master.

It is being convinced by the presence, By the divine presence of the master.

It is being convinced that the master is no more But god is flowing through him. Then only can one become a disciple.

To be a student is easy.

It doesn't require much from your side. But to be a disciple is very demanding. It requires trust, tremendous trust

But once you have tasted The beauties of disciplehood

Then there is nothing sweeter than that. It happened in many other times too:

Many of the disciples of Buddha

Became enlightened but they wouldn't leave him.

And he would insist

'Now that you are enlightened

You have become Buddhas in your own right. You should go and spread the word, reach people! 1/08/07

Osho's books on CD-ROM, published and unpublished Query:- But they would say,

'No. We still want to remain disciples We don't ant to be Buddhas.'

They said to Buddha...

Manjushree, the first disciple of Buddha Who became enlightened

Fell at his feet, cried and wept. He said,'I was not thinking

That enlightenment would happen so soon. Pleas let me hang around!

I don't want to go anywhere.

I am ready to drop this enlightenment

But I am not ready to drop my disciplehood.' Buddha said, 'That is impossible.

Once enlightened, you are enlightened forever. There is no going back!'

But there is significance In his crying and weeping:

He would still like to be a disciple

He would still like to be in the same communion In the same love affair. He does not want to come to the end

Of that beautiful journey. So be truly a disciple.

And the word 'disciple' simply means One who is capable of learning

One who is available to learn One who is receptive.

A loyal heart is the beginning of sannyas:

A heart that can trust

And a heart that can be committed That can get involved

A heart which is capable of dropping all doubt. Only such a heart

Can become a boat to the farther shore Only a loyal heart can know what god is. The doubting person thinks much

But knows nothing.

The trusting person thinks nothing But knows all.

This is just the beginning, 1/08/07

Osho's books on CD-ROM, published and unpublished Query:- The beginning of something

That will go on becoming vaster and vaster. Even the greatest rivers

Start with a tiny spring. But if one goes on working

If one goes on pouring one's energies Soon it becomes a vast river.

And only big rivers can reach the ocean. Man has to become an increasing river Of faithfulness, of trust, of love

Only then is there a possibility to reach The ocean, god, the ultimate.

Small faith is bound

To be lost somewhere on the way.

And people have such small faiths, like dewdrops Just a little heat is enough and they evaporate.

Increasing faithfulness means

Whatsoever happens your faith remains unmoving. Even if everything goes against it

Your faith remains unmoving. There is a Sufi parable:

Junaid, the master of Al Hillaj Mansoor

Was seen with a woman by the side of a river. The woman was pouring some liquid into a glass.

It appeared that he was drinking wine Because the container was like that of wine. A few people rushed to Al Hillaj

Caught hold of him and said 'Come here. You trust this man?' They looked from far away Hidden behind the trees

Al Hillaj saw the master drinking wine. He laughed.

Those people said,'Now what do you say?' He said,'My eyes must have gone wrong.

I don't trust my eyes but I trust my master!' This is faith!

He cannot deny: He is seeing a woman pouring something And Junaid is drinking

And he seems to be almost drunk.

But those people were not going to leave him. They said,'Then you come close, come with us.' They forced him to go there

But when they went there it was nothing: The woman was nobody else

But the master's mother. 1/08/07

Osho's books on CD-ROM, published and unpublished Query:- And there was no wine -- it was only a

Wine flask -- it was pure water.

But Al Hillaj said. 'Even if it had been wine And the women had been a prostitute

I would have still stuck to my first statement That my eyes are seeing something Which is not there, which is not possible.

My eyes can go wrong; my master cannot go wrong.

If such trust is possible, then miracles happen And miracles only happen with such trust.

Yoshimi means the lucky one.

It is really fortunate to be a sannyasin

It is a rare privilege. It is available to all But very few will be able to receive it, Only the lucky ones.

Feel grateful to god that you have been able To gather enough courage to take this jump. Feel grateful to existence

That it has brought you here

That something immensely valuable Becomes possible now.

Sannyas is only a door to the divine But if you are at the door

The divine is not far away. Just go on remembering

That you have to go inwards, into the temple. Because there are a few people who return Even from the door -- the unlucky ones.

Prove that you are really a lucky one, Joshimi! And Yoshime also gas another meaning;

It means watchfulness. That has to be your method The work upon yourself.

The definition of a sannyasin

Is one who is on guard, alert, aware. Watchful of the world around 1/08/07

Osho's books on CD-ROM, published and unpublished Query:- Watchful of the mind inside

Watchful of all kinds of thoughts, desires Images that float in the mind

Watchful of the watcher too.

And that is the ultimate in watchfulness In vigilance: To be aware of

Awareness itself.

First become aware of the world -- Which is the easiest -- aware of the trees And the birds and the sun and the moon. Then become aware of your body

Then become aware of your mind and

You are coming closer and closer to the centre. These are all concentric circles around the centre. Then become watchful of your feelings.

And then finally

Become watchful of your watching. The day one is capable

Of watching one's watchfulness Is the greatest day in life.

Paradise simply descends in you

Bliss starts showering like thousands of flowers.

A sannyasin has to become a song A song in every possible way.

He has to be a celebration.

He has to live life in all its dimensions. He has to be a dance

He has to create music in his being. Unless one creates music in one's being Unless one starts living life as a dance Unless one celebrates existence

There is no possibility of knowing god Because god is the ultimate crescendo Of dance, song, celebration

God is not for the sad people. It is for those who are capable Of love and laughter.

This existence is a tremendous play. Don't take it seriously!

Take it with a song in your heart 1/08/07

Osho's books on CD-ROM, published and unpublished Query:-

Take it joyfully.

Move in the world with a light foot With a laughter in your heart

And then suddenly the whole existence Starts turning into a divine experience. The mundane becomes extraordinary.

My sannyas is not renunciation of the world. It is rejoicing about the world, in the world. Everyone is here to become a proof

For god's existence

And unless one becomes a proof For god's existence

Life is not fulfilled, life is empty and hollow Meaningless, without any significance.

Become aware of it, that life is carrying Something tremendously significant inside it But it is only a seed at the moment.

Sannyas can become the right soil for it.

And in the right season, when the spring comes You can bloom, you can release fragrance.

Only then is there contentment. Otherwise people live in discontentment

And die in discontentment. Their whole life is nothing But an exercise in futility.

The sooner one becomes aware of it, the better Because time is very short. One never knows about tomorrow:

It may come, it may not come.

Hence everything has to be done now. Now the real battle begins!

It is easy to fight with others.

The real fight is with one's own darkness The real fight is with one's own ego.

The ego is the only evil, the only devil. And if you can kill the devil

You become victorious.

But very few people enter into that fight. They fight with everybody else in the world They fight many kinds of battles

But the real battle remains unfought. 1/08/07

Osho's books on CD-ROM, published and unpublished Query:-

Sannyas means the beginning of the real war. It is a war between

Your consciousness and your unconsciousness. Your consciousness is very tiny

Just one-tenth of your being. And the unconsciousness is vast Nine-tenths of your being.

So be a mighty warrior

Only then can one hope to win.

But if one gives a good fight victory is certain. It may take time, patience will be needed.

But victory has happened.

If it has happened to a few people It can happen to everybody

Because we are all potentially the same. Victory can be ugly if it is violent

If it is forced upon somebody; then it stinks Stinks of blood, murder, death.

But victory can also be a fragrant phenomenon. Then the process is totally different.

It has not to be forced on somebody.

You have not to conquer somebody You have to conquer yourself

You have to become a master of your own being Then victory is fragrant, then it has

The fragrance that is not of this earth It has the fragrance of the beyond

It has divine fragrance.

The Buddha, the Christ, they are surrounded With the aura, with that fragrance.

They are victorious people

really victorious people --

Not Alexander and Adolf Hitler. Their victory is ugly.

Anything that is based on violence Is going to be ugly.

Unless you have conquered all your ugly desires Of destructiveness, of ego, of greed

Of jealousy, of hatred

You will not know what love is. When all these ugly things

Have been dropped, transformed

You will be full of love 1/08/07

Osho's books on CD-ROM, published and unpublished Query:- Buddha also conquers other people

But not with a sword, he conquers with his love. Jesus also conquers.

His victory is far more permanent than The victory of Alexander the Great.

That is very tiny, momentary. But the victory of Jesus

Will go down the centuries. He will not be here

But his fragrance will continue. The fundamental is

First to be a master of yourself Then you know what love is.

And through love the whole world can be conquered. Love -- that one word

Contains all that is worth having in life, Worth possessing in life.

One can forget god, nothing is lost.

But if one forgets love then everything is lost. If love is there, god is bound to happen Because god is the ultimate peak

Of the experience of love.

But without love even god is not possible, Without love nothing is possible:

No bliss, no benediction, no truth, no freedom. Love is nectar

It gives you the experience of immortal life, It is the bridge between time and eternity.

Peace is a by-product fo meditation. It cannot be achieved directly.

If one tries to be peaceful Then the peace will be false. It will appear to be a flower But it will not be a true flower It won't have any fragrance.

Real peace

Arises only as a by-product of meditation Hence only a man of meditation

1/08/07

Osho's books on CD-ROM, published and unpublished Query:- Can be a man of peace.

The goal should be meditation

The effort should be for meditation. And when you achieve meditation

When you become more and more calm and quiet When you become more and more thoughtless More and more conscious

Then suddenly peace explodes. It is not that you achieve it

It comes as a gift from god, as a reward For your coming to your centre.

You have left the circumference of the mind And you have penetrated the very core

Or your being.

Make every possible effort to meditate So that your name can become a reality. There are two kinds of mercifulness.

One is when the other is in misery

And you feel sorry and you would like to help. That is accidental.

You are not really merciful

Only in a certain situation are you affected. If the other had not been in misery

If the other had not been in a sad situation You would not have felt mercy.

It is not your state

It is only a momentary emotion.

It is sentimentality -- it is not of much value. The second kind of mercy is really valuable. Then it is a state of being.

It does not depend on other's misery You are simply merciful.

Whether the other is in misery or not Is irrelevant.

Even if the other is blissful Still you are merciful

Still you are compassionate.

To be compassionate is your nature now So you are simply compassionate

Irrespective of what is happening around. Then only it is no more sentimentality

It is no more just a passing phase An emotion, a good emotion.

Then it is something solid and substantial. Then it is intrinsic, not accidental.

1/08/07

Osho's books on CD-ROM, published and unpublished Query:- This second kind of mercy is possible

Only through deep meditation.

The first can be cultivated as a character The second cannot be cultivated.

It comes as a consequence of deep inner search. It is the ultimate result of an inner pilgrimage.

And one thing more: The first kind of mercy Will make you egoistic, piously egoistic; Very holy, but egoistic all the same.

And the holy ego is far more ugly Than any other kind of ego.

The second kind of mercy

Will be absolutely egoless.

It can happen only when the ego has disappeared. It blooms only when the ego is no more found.

The first kind of mercy you will find

In Christian missionaries and public servants And the so-called do- gooders.

They are mischievous people.

They are exploiting other people's misery For their own virtue, for their own paradise. They are using others as stepping stones.

The second kind of mercy you will find Only in a Christ or a Buddha or a Krishna -- People who are fully awakened.

I emphasise the second kind.

Make a clear distinction between the two Because sometimes the pseudo coin

Can go on deceiving you for your whole life. Nobody is born noble.

That idea is pure nonsense -- that a few people Are born noble, aristocratic, royal.

That is utter nonsense.

Everybody is born alike Everybody is born unconscious.

Nobility is attained when you become conscious. Then one really becomes an aristocrat

An aristocrat of the soul,

One attains a certain aristocracy

A certain nobleness, a certain grace and beauty But it comes through one's own efforts.

It is impossible to be noble If you are unconscious.

In unconsciousness how can one expect to behave In a noble way? 1/08/07

Osho's books on CD-ROM, published and unpublished Query:- One is like a robot

And robots are not noble, cannot be: Machines are machines.

It is only through becoming more conscious That you come out of your robotlike existence That glimpses of freedom, of love, of joy Start arising in you.

And these are the things

Which transform your very being.

They give you a new form, a new flavour A new fragrance.

Then you live in the world

But you are not of the world -- that is nobleness. You move through the world

And all the fires of the world

But you keep your cool, it remains undisturbed. That is undistractedness, that centredness

Is nobleness.

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