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30 January 1980 pm in Chuang Tzu Auditorium

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[NOTE: This is an unedited tape transcript of an unpublished darshan diary, which has been copy-typed. It is for reference purposes only.]

This is your name: Ma Jivano Jeannine. Jivano means life. Jeannine means grace of god.

Life is a gift. It is given to us for no reason at all. It is not that we have earned it, it is not that we deserve it. In fact we are very undeserving, unworthy, but still god has given it to us.

Why he has given life to us is one of the most significant questions to be asked. He gives because he has too much... not that we deserve but because he is overflowing. God is overflowing energy, and energy delights in sharing. God is not a person but pure energy, a flood of energy; hence this whole existence, this multi-dimensional expression... So many flowers, so many trees, so many birds, animals, stars, people -- it is unbelievable how many forms he has taken.

The moment you start seeing this unbelievable mystery, this incredible phenomenon that we call life, you are bound to feel grateful. And that gratefulness is the beginning of sannyas because it is the beginning of prayer.

This is your name: Ma Deva Donja. Deva means divine. Donja means worthy.

We may not know it but we have infinite potential. We may be absolutely oblivious to it but we have contain the seeds of god. We can become gods, and unless we do there can never be any contentment in our hearts.

Contentment comes only as a by-product. When one achieves one's potential, when the seed becomes the flower, there is contentment, there is great rejoicing.

Religion is the art of the seed growing towards the flower, of removing hindrances, obstacles, of dropping all that hinders and co-operating with all that helps. It is a subtle art and it comes only slowly slowly.

Once you have got the hang of it life starts moving very quickly. It jumps in leaps and bounds. But the preparation is long an arduous. And the greatest problem is patience.

Be patient and learn the ways of growth, learn the ways of going in. They are all available here.

Whatsoever is needed is available here. Not it is up to you to imbibe the spirit of it. So don't be a spectator.

Participate, and participate totally, because if sannyas means anything it means trust.

You are entering into the world of trust, you are leaving doubt behind. You are leaving mind itself behind. You are moving into the dimension of the heart. It is only through love that one grows, not through logic.

This is your name: Ma Anando Daniela. Anando means rejoice. Daniela means god is my judge because god is love and love cannot harm.

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Love knows how to forgive. Love can only forgive, because the essential core of

love is compassion. So all the ideas of hell and punishment are inventions of cruel human minds, inventions of religious sadists.

They were trying to hide their sadism behind hole garbage, but they were simply pathological.

If god is, there can be no hell, if god is, there can be no punishment. If god is, then there are only rewards and rewards because god is love!

That is my essential message: don't live out of fear, because there is no question of being punished. Live fearlessly because only then do you live totally. Fear naturally closes you, it does not allow you to open up.

You have to consider a thousand and one things before you can do a single thing

-- whether it is right or wrong, moral or immoral, according to the church or not, whether the scriptures favor it or is against it. And you will get more and more confused the more you think about it.

Even a very simple thing can be converted into a confusion. There ar Jaina monks in India who are afraid to breathe because their scriptures say that when you breath you kill small cells that live in the air. So they are afraid to breaths. Now such a small thing, such a natural thing has become a problem. They cannot run because then they will be breathing fast, so they have to walk slowly. And they continuously wear a strip of cloth on their noses so that the flow of the air is not strong. Now how can these people live at all?

They cannot even breathe!

If you look around in the so-called religious lives one thing is certain, every religion has been destructive. It has hampered them, obstructed them, made them so afraid of everything that small joys of life, drinking tea, becomes sin. Drinking water in the night becomes sin. And once you start moving in that direction, of making things into sins, you cannot live, you only drag.

My approach is totally different. There are mistakes but there is no sin at all. There are errors but no sin.

And one can commit errors because it is only through committing errors that one learns. Only one thing has to be remembered, don't commit the same error again and again because that is stupid.

One should explore life, and in exploring sometimes you go astray. If you are too afraid of going astray you cannot explore. Then the whole adventure of life is crushed, killed, destroyed. And that's what so-called religious people have done: they have made religion so serious, so sombre, they have given religion such a long face.

My effort is to give you joy, gusto for life, courage to adventure, to move fearlessly, exploring all possibilities that life makes available, fearless in expanding and being open and vulnerable. Because god is our judge we need not be afraid.

Finally at the judgement day when you see god, you can tell him, "Yes, I have been drinking tea, please forgive me. I have tried a few other things also." And I think he will understand -- don't be worried!

This is your new name: Swami Anand Jayen. Anand means bliss. Jayen means victory.

The inward journey is the only way to find bliss. And when you have reached to the center of your being for the first time, you feel victorious; otherwise you are a failure. On the outside nobody ever is victorious.

On the outside there is only defeat and defeat and defeat, because what we are searching is not there at all, so we are doomed; our very search is doomed. Even a man like Alexander the Great died as a failure.

Only very few people have died victorious: a Jesus, a Buddha, a Kabir.

And the reason for their victory was not that they were great conquerors of the world -- they conquered themselves. They had the greatest adventure of life: they moved to their center.

We live on the circumference. Sannyas means a decision, a commitment to move from the circumference to the center. At the center is bliss, at the center is victory. On the circumference is misery and defeat. It is up to you whether to make your life a joy, a work of art, a piece of music, or to just go on collecting junk.

This is your new name: Ma Usho. Usho means the dawn, just those beautiful moments when the night is over and the sun has not yet arrived, when it is just

about to arrive. The East is becoming orange and the earth is getting ready to welcome the sun. The birds have started singing, the trees are waking up. The whole earth is excited, life is again stirring out if its slumber. A new day is just to begin. Those are the most beautiful moments.

And sannyas is exactly like that in the inner world. It is a dawn, the early moments, the interval between the night and the day, the gap. Hence the orange color has been chosen. It is the color if the morning sun. It is the color of the flowers, it is the color of blood, of life. It is the color of the spring in the East because the whole of nature become so colorful... and so many flowers. There are forests which look as if they ar on 1/08/07

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fire... so many red flowers.

Make as much use as possible of these potential moments. These are very pregnant moments. The sun is not very far, but the night also has not gone very far away. One can turn back and move into the dark night again, one can close one's eyes and may not see the sun. Our habits die hard and we have lived in darkness long, too long; we have become accustomed to darkness, to blindness. To receive something absolutely new needs courage, needs tremendous courage, needs the heart of a gambler.

So be ready for it! remember not to turn back. Remember that one has to go ahead, whatsoever the risk and whatsoever the cost because growth is possible only if we risk all. If we are miserly in risking, growth cannot happen.

This is your new name: Swami Gitama. Gitama means song.

Live life as a song. Make ordinary life as joyful as possible. Make something extraordinary out of it.

Don't condemn the ordinary -- that is the way of the foolish person. Transform the ordinary -- that is the way of the wise. The mundane is not against the sacred, the mundane is only a stepping stone towards the sacred.

Religions have condemned life too much; hence they have been destructive towards all joy, singing, dancing, celebrating. They praise the other world and the condemn this world. To me this and that are one.

There are not two worlds, there is only one world, and if you condemn this world you cannot praise the other. If you want to praise the other, you have to praise this. And once you learn how to live on this earth beautifully, joyously, you will become aware of the presence of god everywhere.

So live life as a song -- that is my message for you.

This is your new name: Swami Visarjan. Visarjan means dissolution, disappearing, evaporating.

Man has to disappear for god to be. One has to be ready to die as an ego, as a separate entity, only then can one feel the totality, the whole. And to feel the whole is to be holy. To allow the whole to take possession of you totally is sannyas. It is like a river disappearing into the ocean. It will lose its identity, it will love its name and form, but it will gain much. It will gain the whole ocean.

Sannyas means a river dissolving, ready to dissolve into the ocean. In the real sense it is a suicide. Not the ordninary suicide in which one kills one's body. That is stupid because one will be entering into another body within seconds. And because on has been destructive towards the body one will get a far worse body than on had before... because one has not been grateful, one had shown one's ungratefulness.

Sannyas is a real suicide. One drops the ego, one no more thinks of oneself as separate, one becomes part of the whole. Then there is no anxiety. How can there be anxiety then? You are no more -- who is going to be anxious? There is no anguish possible. All anguish is a shadow of the ego -- the bigger the ego, the bigger the anguish. There can be no fear any more, not even the fear of death. It is the ego that is afraid of death, and you have already dropped that. Now there is no death for you. You have moved into eternal life.

A river is afraid to die, but not the ocean. A dewdrop is bound to be afraid, sooner or later it has to die.

But not the ocean, the ocean is forever.

We are like dewdrops. Becoming a sannyasin means that we are taking the greatest quantum leap possible, we are ready to disappear as we are to become that which is our real destiny -- the whole.. And with that comes all benediction. Infinite joys start showering on you, and they go on showering. Then there is no end to it.

This is your new name: Ma Sangitama. Sangitama means music, harmony, melody.

Man lives in a very unharmonious way because his whole effort is to live an an entity separate form the whole. He wants to live as a person. He is trying the impossible. He is part of the whole and can only be part of the whole. The very effort, the very idea that 'I am separate,' creates disharmony between you and the whole. That is misery. You start lagging behind the whole, you are never in tune with the whole. Something is always missing, something seems to be standing between you and the whole. And that which stands between you and the whole is your own ego, your own projection, your own idea of being separate.

Let that ego die and great music explodes, because you are then in harmony with the whole. Then you live in tune and to be in tune with the whole is bliss. Not to be in tune with the whole is misery.

A sannyasin has to do only one thing, that is, he has to die as a person to be reborn as part of the whole.

And the paradox is that a part of the whole is not less than the whole. A part of the whole is as big as the whole, because the part is the whole.

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This goes against ordinary mathematics, but this is part of a higher mathematics. That higher mathematics is religion. And religion is capable of living all kinds of paradoxes, of understanding all kinds of paradoxes. Science tries to explain away those paradoxes, religion accepts them. It never tries to explain them away

but it absorbs them, it tries to live the whole paradox without any choice, without choosing this part or that.

Living choicelessly, accepting the whole with all its contradictions, its polarities, makes one aware that the part is equal to the whole, the whole is equal to the part, and that by disappearing into the whole you don't lose anything. You gain everything, you gain the whole. Then stars start moving within you, then the whole sky is yours. You become spread all over existence. You are no more confined in a small body, you become unbounded, you become infinite.

And that is the goal of sannyas, to become unbounded, to become infinite, because only then is there freedom, is there bliss, is there ecstasy.

This is your new name: Swami Ramo. Ramo means god.

Everyone is god, everything is god. Existence and god are two words for the same phenomenon. so don't think of god in terms of a person who created the world, who controls the world, who manages the whole affair. Don't think of him as a supreme boss -- there is nobody like that. God is not somebody, god is a quality. It is far better to call it godliness. It is a fragrance. It simply says one thing, that the world does not consist only of the visible, it also contains the invisible. The world does not consist only of the measurable

-- the world also contains the immeasurable. The world does not consist only of the outside, it also has the dimension of interiority. That's all that is meant by god, the dimension of the interiority.

And you have to explore it now. That's what sannyas is all about: going into a deep exploration of who you are, of what this consciousness inside you is, who this witness is inside you that can witness the body, that can witness the mind. Who is this witness? From this moment that question should become suprememost. That should be your first priority. Your whole energy should start moving around it.

And once it becomes your deepest concern, you ultimate concern, doors start opening. suddenly inside you, you start finding ways and means and paths that you have never travelled. They are all there, everything is ready, it is just that you are not moving in. You are focussed on the outside. Your back is towards your interiority.

Turn in. A one-hundred-eighty-degree turn is needed. And once you start knowing who you are -- just little glimpses.

Each moment you are in for surprise. Life becomes a dance, a celebration. Your eyes become full of wonder and awe. And that's what religiousness, true religiousness, is.

Dance Til the Stars Come Down From the Rafters

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