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[NOTE: This is an unedited tape transcript of an unpublished darshan diary, which has been copy-typed. It is for reference purposes only.]

This is your name: Swami Satyam Johannes. Satyam means the truth. Johannes means god's gift.

Truth is never an achievement, it is always a gift from the beyond. We cannot come to truth trough our own efforts, because whatsoever we do we will be doing out of all kinds limitations, imperfections, unconsciousness, we will be doing it out of our minds. And mind has no capacity to know the unknown.

Mind can only mechanically repeat that which is already known. It is a mechanism. No machine can ever know truth.

The body is a machine and the mind is a machine, but something in you is

beyond both body and mind.

That is the capacity to be aware, when there is only awareness and nothing else, when you are not tethered to the bodymind complex at all, truth descends upon you. It comes like a bird descending on a tree.

That is the meaning of the beautiful story of when Jesus was baptized by John the Baptist in the river Jordan a white dove descended on Jesus from the above. That is not literally true, it is a metaphor. That white dove represents truth.

Remember that we have to be more receptive, more open, more sensitive. That's all that is needed on your part. When you are ripe, ready, truth always comes, inevitably, without fail. It always comes from the beyond, and the name of the beyond is god.

This is your name: Swami Dhyan Alastair. Dhyan means meditation. Alastair is a form of Alexander. It means helper of mankind.

The only help for you and for others too, comes from meditation, because it is meditation that gives you roots in the earth and wings in the sky. It is meditation that creates that space in which your potential can become actual. It is meditation that functions like a soil for the seed to sprout. And you can be a blessing to others only if you have first been a blessing to yourself. You can help others only if you have helped yourself. If you are not rooted, centered, mature enough, even if you want to do good to others you are bound to do harm.

That's what all do-gooders do: they are all mischievous people. More mischief has been perpetuated by the so-called servants of humanity than by anybody else. And the reason is not that their intention is bad -- I never doubt their intention, their intention is sincere -- but they are not in that kind of space themselves.

What they want to bring to others they themselves don't have. They want to share love but love is not there in their hearts. They want to be compassionate but compassion comes only after meditation, it is a shadow of meditation. They want to serve people, but service is possible only when the ego has disappeared.

Otherwise in the name of service you will be simply going on an ego trip, a very subtle ego trip.

Hence my effort here is not to make you servants of humanity, helpers of humanity... Not that I am against serving people and helping people, but because first you need to be helped. And once you are settled in your being and the chaos has disappeared, once you have become really grown up, you will serve. There is no need to say anything about it, it has not even to be mentioned. It is a by- product.

If you grow trees and they bloom they are bound to release fragrance. You need not go and tell the flowers 'Please, now release your fragrance'. And if they are plastic flowers you can go on telling them but they can't do it.

Meditation has to become the center of your life, and then on the circumference, ten thousand things become possible. Ten thousand things is a Chinese metaphor; it means millions of things become possible.

In fact everything becomes possible. Even the impossible is no more impossible. Meditation is the greatest miracle there is. Devote all your energies to meditation.

This is your name: Ma Antar Laura. Antar means inner. Laura means victory.

The real victory is always inner. It is victory over yourself. The unreal victory is over others and it is ugly. To conquer somebody else is to destroy, is to reduce him to a thing, because by conquering you become the possessor and he becomes the possessed. The very effort to conquer somebody else is basically 1/08/07

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inhuman. But there is a desire to be victorious. It needs the right direction.

Desire in itself is not wrong, but if it moves outwards it will bring misery to others and misery to you too, because whenever you are trying to conquer others they are bound to react; sooner or later they will take revenge, and with a vengeance. It brings violence to life, it brings conflict. And to live in violence and conflict is to live in misery.

The desire to be victorious has to be directed inwards. And there there are real enemies to be conquered: anger, greed, jealousy, and so on, so forth. These are the real enemies. They can all be reduced to a single enemy, that is unconsciousness. They all grow out of it.

The unconscious has to be conquered, the unconscious has to be made conscious. That is victory, true victory. And when you are full of consciousness, when not even a small pocket of unconsciousness remains in you, when not even in nooks and corners is any darkness left behind, then life is known for the first time with all its beauty, with all its splendor. And to know that is to know god.

God is nothing but life in its true colors, life in its true music, life in its true celebration.

This is your name: Ma Anne Marie. Anne means prayer. Marie means fragrance.

Prayer is a flower, the ultimate flowering of consciousness. There is nothing higher than that, it is love at its crescendo. And naturally great fragrance is released.

A man of prayer is a man of great love. He is in total love with existence. His whole life is a love affair.

Each moment is a joy because each moment brings new surprises, each moment brings great gifts. No moment is ever empty.

It is because of our blindness that we cannot see the beauty. It is because of our deafness that we cannot hear the music, otherwise the music is all around, the beauty is surrounding you. But you have to rise to a higher level to experience it.

These are the three planes that human energy can give rise to take. The first is sex, the second is love, the third is prayer. It is the same energy moving higher, becoming less and less gross, becoming more and more subtle.

Sex is energy moving downwards. It functions under the law of gravitation. The earth pulls it down. It is earthy, it is physiological, biological, chemical. Science can study it. It is available to scientific methodology. It is material.

Love is higher. It is exactly in the middle of sex and prayer. a little bit of it is available, just a little bit penetrates times. A part of it is available to all human

beings, but the other part is available only to those who start moving into the inner search, only to the religious people.

The first part that is available to ordinary human beings is unconscious. The second part is conscious.

When love becomes conscious then you experience for the first time something that is beyond gravitation, that does not go downwards but goes upwards.

And the third is prayer.

Sex goes downwards, love goes upwards, prayer goes nowhere. It is a state of being. Sex is movement, so is love; they move is polar opposite directions. But prayer is a still point, there is no movement, no journey, no pilgrimage. You simply are.

In that profound silence and stillness when you simply are, you become aware of god. The whole existence becomes full of godliness. And it is not only that you experience godliness. People who will come close to you, people who are open to you, will also feel something strange, mysterious, miraculous. They will have a whiff of the unknown. In some moments they may become aware of a certain aura around you.

That is the fragrance of prayer.

We have depicted it as a white aura around Buddhas, Krishnas, Christs, just to give an indication that something mysterious surrounds these people. Of course not everybody becomes aware if it. The people who crucified Jesus were not aware of it, otherwise they would not have been able to kill him. They were blind, utterly blind.

One needs a certain sensitivity. The higher the phenomenon, the more sensitivity is needed. And prayer is the highest phenomenon, nothing is higher than that. Everything is lover than that.

So a few people who are open, available, who can look upwards towards the sky full of stars, who can see the beauty of the sunset, who can see the beauty of a sunrise, these are the people who will be able to feel. It is a feeling. You cannot grasp it, you cannot cling to it. It is not matter, not measurable, it is not visible. But it is a feeling. The heart starts dancing. That is the fragrance.

Anne Marie is a beautiful name... But you have to change it, you have to give it to Laura. Right?

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This is your new name: Swami Anutoshen. Anutoshen means contentment.

Mind lives in discontentment. That is its food. To be discontented is its nourishment. If you become contented mind dies out of starvation... and the mind has to die, only then you can know who you are. So learn the ways of being contented.

Whatsoever is, feel grateful for it. Don't ask for more and you will be cutting the very roots of the mind.

Mind lives in the more. If you have money it says, "Have more." If you have knowledge it says, "Have more." Whatsoever you have -- it doesn't matter what it is -- mind says "More", and it goes on saying

"More, more..." When you have attained that, again it is there asking for more. That more is unquenchable.

Seeing the absurdity of it, one drops it. One no more runs after the horizon because one knows there is no horizon. It only appears. It looks so close by, just ten, fifteen miles away. If you run you can reach within two hours, but by the time you reach there, it is not there; it is again fifteen miles ahead. It is always fifteen miles ahead. There is no way to bridge the gap.

The more is the horizon and mind is always asking for it; hence mind lives in misery. Mind is hell. And the best way to cut its roots is: to drop asking for more. Rather start enjoying that which is available. Rather than being miserable because you don't have more, be blissful for whatsoever you have and enjoy it, relish it, rejoice in it. And you will be surprised that immediately you are the richest person in the world, immediately you are no more a beggar.

And once the more disappears, the mind disappears. Mind is equivalent to more and more and more. Let the mind die so that you can be reborn.

This is your new name: Swami Anugiten. Anugiten means a little song, a small song -- and that's all that is required to a sannyasin: a little singing, a little dance, a little of the art and knack of rejoicing in life.

Life consists of small things, but if one knows the art of transforming them then small things start becoming extraordinary.

Sannyas is a magic touch. It transforms dust into gold, dust into divine. And the art is simple, it is not complicated. The fundamental is to cut yourself from the past. It hangs around your neck like a heavy weight. There are many rocks and you are carrying them, it is such a burden. Drop them and immediately you feel a great relief. You would like to sing and dance for the sheer joy of being relieved of all that burden.

The second part of the secret is, don't imagine the future, don't project in the future, because that also creates a burden. Once you expect something you arr creating difficulties for yourself. It is never going to happen the way you expect it for the simple reason that you are a small part of such a vast universe and the universe cannot follow your whims. It goes its own way, unconcerned about what you expect, that you want. It is absolutely neutral about your wants and desired. It cares for you but it does not care for your desires, no, not at all, because if it starts caring about everybody's desires the whole universe will be in a chaos. It will never be at rest again. There will be no cosmos. All harmony will disappear.

So it cares for you, but is does not care for all kinds of insane desires and expectations and plans. So whenever you desire you are creating a situation in which you will feel frustrated. Expect, and you are bound to feel frustrated. Cut yourself off from the past and the future and live in the present, and your life becomes a song and a dance. Then just eating, drinking, taking a bath, going for a morning walk... and all is suddenly golden, and so many flowers shower on you for no reason at all. You can't contain it -- so much bliss arrives. You become overflooded, you have to share it.

That's what a song is -- sharing your bliss, expressing your bliss, inviting others to partake of your bliss.

This is your new name: Swami Anutosho. Anutosho means absolutely satisfied, utterly satisfied, no desire for anything else, a state of non-desire.

Desire means that you are not satisfied with the way things are. You would like things according to you.… Satisfaction means that you are surrendered to existence so whatsoever it gives, you are grateful. If it gives nothing you are grateful that it gives nothing.

A Sufi mystic used to thank god every day. After his prayers he would almost shout with joy 'God, how much you give me, how much you take care of me, how much you love me! How can I ever repay?' And he would cry tears of joy.

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minds the question was always there, and a situation arose in which they felt that now it was absolutely right to ask. They were travelling, going to Kaaba for the holy pilgrimage, and for three days they could not get any food, and no village was ready to give them shelter because the master was a known revolutionary and the people ware very orthodox.

So for three nights they has to sleep in the desert, and the desert was very cold. Without food, without water, they were utterly tired. And the third day again, after his prayer the mystic started crying with joy and said 'God, how much you do for me! How can I ever repay it? How much care you take? How can you remember me? You have to take care of such a vast universe -- still you remember me.'

The disciples gathered together and they said 'Enough is enough. Now what are you thanking him for?

For three days we have no food, no water, no shelter. We are dying from the cold nights... and you are thinking god and crying tears of joy. For what?'

The master said 'It is good that you have asked. I always know that you carried this question within you but you were not courageous enough to ask. Now I can answer it. I am thanking him for keeping me for three days without food, without water, without shelter, because this is what I needed. He always gives that which is needed. It is not a question of my expectations being fulfilled, it is his will that has to be fulfilled and whatsoever he wills is right. We may understand it, we may not. But this was my need and he has fulfilled it and I am grateful.'

This is what I mean by true contentment. And if one can be in such a space, nothing else is needed.

Meditation arrives on its own, because mind dies. You need not do anything to destroy it, it disappears of its own accord.

Mind is like darkness and contentment is like light. Bring contentment in and the darkness disappears.

And then you can see. For the first time you can see and for the first time you can hear and for the first time you can feel. Because mind is hindering everything, it does not allow you to see, it does not allow you to hear. It is standing between you and existence. Once it is not there you are available to god and god is available to you. That is liberation, nirvana, enlightenment.

This is your name: Swami Anugito. It means a song.

My approach towards life is of total affirmation. I don't teach renunciation, I teach rejoicing. I want you to love life with you total heart. When you are in life with a total heart thousands of songs will arise out of you. Each moment brings a song. Slowly slowly your whole life becomes just an instrument of music. And once you have known that great music is possible through you, you have come to recognize your potential.

Then there is no end to it. You can go on playing new songs, new music. You can go on creating.

That creativity is sannyas. Creating music out of your heart is sannyas. Becoming a song is sannyas.

This is your new name: Ma Vipassana. Vipassana is one of the most significant methods of meditation.

Buddha became enlightened through it and many more people have become enlightened through it than through any other method. It is tremendously beautiful and yet very simple. Even a child can do it.

The method consists of watching your breath. Whenever you have time, when you have nothing to do, just sit silently, seeing the breath coming in. Follow it. It goes to the very depth. Then there is a pause, for a moment there is no movement, the breath stops there. Watch that pause. That is very important because that is the door into your being. Then the breath starts coming out. Watch it again. It goes out completely, then again there is a pause, for a moment breathing stops. That too is a door.

One is the door into the inner reality, the other is the door into the outer reality. If you enter from the inner door you enter from the self into god. If you enter from the outer door you enter through god into the self. They are two aspects of the same coin.

But remember, the breathing is not to be changed, it has to be natural as it is always. You are not to make any effort to make it longer, deeper. There should be no change at all, leave it as it is. The only thing that has to be introduced is a witness, a watcher.

So you name is going to be your method of liberation. First do it sitting and then slowly slowly you will manage to do it walking, then finally you will manage to do it while doing other kinds of things: cooking, taking your bath, cleaning the floor. Only one thing has to be remembered: never to it in the night -- only between sunrise and sunset.

If you do it in the night you will not be able to sleep, because it creats such wakefulness. So only between sunrise and sunset... And if you feel that your sleep is being disturbed, then reduce the time. Then do it not even between sunset and sunrise, but for two hours after sunrise or for two hours before sunset, just 1/08/07

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between that time. You have to find out... because it differs from person to person.

There are a few people who can enjoy it even in the night, but it is very rare.

This is your name: Swami Prem Dhyano. Prem means love. Dhyano means meditation.

Love is a path unto itself, and so is meditation. One can follow either love or meditation; both lead to the same goal. But there are a few people who can follow both, and of course their journey is far richer. And that is going to be the work for you: love as deeply as possible and meditate as deeply as possible and go on moving between the two. Remain fluid, flexible.

The lover finds it difficult to meditate because he needs the other and meditation means to be alone. The meditator finds it difficult to love because he becomes accustomed to being alone and the freedom of being alone. The very presence of the other seems to be a transgression, an interference, a disturbance.

So ordinarily it is simple to follow one, but if you can manage both then your life will have more richness. The meditator knows only the beauty of aloneness. He knows nothing of the beauty of togetherness. The lover knows the beauty of togetherness but is unaware of the beauty of being alone. And there is no necessity that one should miss the beauty of the other, just one has to be a little more intelligent to follow both, because things become complicated. You are handling a more complicated process.

So when you are with somebody -- with a friend, with a beloved, with the trees, with the clouds, with the moon -- dissolve yourself totally into it; forget yourself, as if you are not, be drunk. And when you close your eyes, forget the clouds, the woman, the friend, the stars, as if the world has disappeared. You are alone and there exists nothing else; all else is illusory. Go on moving between these two with a natural ease, and you will be surprised that then they enhance each other. When you have been together with somebody and you go into aloneness, your aloneness has more depth. When you have been alone and you move with somebody, your love has more energy to share. It has more intensity. It is more warm.

I am giving you a difficult task... but try! And if you fail, if you find it very difficult, then you can always choose one. But my feeling is that you will be able

to manage both together.

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