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12 January 1980 pm in Chuang Tzu Auditorium

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[NOTE: This is an unedited tape transcript of an unpublished darshan diary, which has been copy-typed. It is for reference purposes only.]

This is your name: Swami Prem Gunther. Prem means love. Gunther means bold.

Love without boldness is impossible. Love requires guts. The greatest courage in life is to lose yourself

-- and that's the primary requirement of love. Unless you lose yourself you cannot be in love. You can play the game called love, but you will never know the reality of love. You will be doing something else in the name of love. Deep down it will only be an ego trip -- and love can never be an ego trip.

Ego has to be dissolved, only then does love flow in you. And that is real courage. In a deep sense it is committing suicide -- not of the body but of the mind. It is becoming mindless. Hence love looks to people like something mad, insane. In a way it is true, it is mad. Going beyond the mind is a certain kind of madness. Of course it is divine madness and it brings a sanity of its own kind. It beings an insight, an understanding, but is is totally different from intellectual understanding. It is not of the mind, it is of the beyond.

This is your new name: Swami Anand Vedo. Anand means bliss, vedo means the

scripture -- the scripture of bliss. That is what we are meant to be: scriptures of bliss, sermons of joy, messages of god, flowerings of wisdom. That is our essential being, but we don't allow it to happen, to grow, to explode. We prevent it in every possible way. We are our own enemies.

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To be a sannyasin means to become a friend to yourself. And mow start looking for your intrinsic potential. Don't be bothered about what others say you should be, listen to your own inner voice and be it!

And whatsoever is the risk, risk... because without risk there is no growth, without risk the seed can never become a sprout, without risk the child will never be born out of the womb.

Ashen means hope. There is great hope because man can become god. there is great hope because man can blossom into thousands of flowers. There is great hope because man can transcend death, can become immortal.

Come again! There is great hope (much laughter) ... come again! (To Judy, Serge's little sister)

Such a good sannyasin! (laughter)

This is your new name: Ma Gitima. Gitima means poetry, a song. Become a song. Sing and dance -- that is your meditation!

The name is tremendously beautiful, and this is my whole approach towards life, the meaning of your name. Mirella means wonder, awe.

Man can function in two ways, either through knowledge or through wonder. If he functions through knowledge he never comes to know the great mysteries of life. Of course he collects many stupid facts called data, but he never comes to

know the inner reality that joins those facts together. He knows only fragments and never the harmony that runs through all of then that keeps them together. That's what science goes on doing. The very word 'science' means knowledge. When you function through knowledge you function through the mind.

Religion functions through the heart. To function through the heart, wonder is the quality required.

When you are in a moment of wonder and awe you are again a child. Again the same freshness overwhelms you, as if the whole existence has become bathed, all dust has disappeared, and the mirror is so clean that it can reflect the subtlest nuances of existence.

Religion is born out of the experiences of awe

Seeing the sunrise or the sunset, be overwhelmed. Those are the great moments. Seeing the sky full of stars, be drunk, be lost, utterly lost in it. Become a small star yourself, not a separate spectator but a participant. When you participate in existence you know the mystery. God is nothing but another name for the mysterious that one discovers through wonder and awe.

Function from a state of innocence==that's the only way to know. Knowledge is not the way to know. It is only pretension. Innocence is the way to know, and for innocence one has to sacrifice all knowledge. One has to put it aside as sheer garbage. And it is exactly that. It is all crap!

-- What exactly is the meaning of your name (Livio)?

-- I don't know.

(To Lalita, translator and Osho's librarian)

-- Lalita, do you have some idea?

-- It is the name of a great Roman family.

-- Mm, but what does it mean?

-- It might come from Silviano -- the god of the forest... but that's a guess.

-- (To Livio) So we will accept Lalita's guess. She is my researcher!

The solitary person is in a negative space. He is feeling lonely, he is hankering for the other. He is in a deep sadness because he does not know how to be with himself, he does not know how to enjoy himself, he does not know how to celebrate himself. All that he knows is relationship, so whenever he is in relationship he feels at ease. Whenever he is with somebody he can forget himself. To be with somebody is something like alcohol, it is an intoxicant. It is simply drowning yourself, your worries, anxieties, your very existence in the other. And the other is doing the same with you. That's what people call relationship. Each is using the other as a means to avoid himself.

Solitude is totally different. It is not loneliness, it is aloneness. It is aloneness. It is not negative, it is utterly positive. It is not the experience that the other is absent but the experience that 'I am present.' It is so overwhelming an experience of one's own presence that everything else fades from the ind and one starts feeling ecstatic. The sheer joy of breathing, the sheer joy of being, the sheer joy of participating in existence 1/08/07

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is enough. It is a wonder to be, the wonder of wonders.

Bliss makes real solitude. Then solitude becomes a temple, bliss becomes the deity in it. And that's what meditation is all about: the art of changing loneliness into aloneness, the alchemy of changing solitariness into solitude.

This is your name: Ma Prem Madak. Prem means love, madak means intoxicant. Love is the only real intoxicant. And it has a very paradoxical quality to it: it intoxicates you and yet it makes you more aware.

That's the miracle of love. It does not make you unconscious. It it makes you unconscious it is lust, not love.

If it makes you drunk and yet in the deepest core of your being you become more and more alert and conscious, then it is love.

One can be aware without love, but then awareness is almost like a wasteland, a desert. Nothing grows, no flowers, no trees. Love can be without awareness but then it is simply sexuality, animal lust, nothing higher than that -- something biological, physical, chemical. But when both are together, love and awareness, they create a great harmony.

So this has to be your work on yourself, love plus awareness. Be drunk as much as you can and yet remain aware. When this paradox is experienced one has experienced god.

This is your new name: Swami Deva Abhilash. Deva means divine. Abhilash means thirst for, a deep deep longing for the divine. It is not only a desire, because desire is of the mind. Hence I call it thirst. It is far deeper. You are involved totally in it, your very existence, your every fibre, every cell is dying without it It is as if a man were lost in a desert and is feeling thirsty but cannot find water. First it is in the mind, then slowly he starts feeling it in the body. Then slowly it becomes so total that he is just thirst and nothing else. Not even the word 'thirst' is there. He is thirst. That is the meaning of abhilash.

In English there is no word to express it exactly, that's why the explanation is needed. The dictionaries translate it as desire, then they miss the whole point. In Sanskrit we have many words for different kinds of desires. Abhilash is the highest, the purest kind of longing, the longing for the ultimate, the longing to transcend oneself, the longing to come home, the longing to wake up. It is a divine longing, it is a divine discontent. And the person who feels it is blessed.

This is your new name: Swami Gyandas. Gyandas means a servant of wisdom.

The only thing to be remembered always it that wisdom does not mean knowledge, it means just the opposite. It means a state of not-knowing. It means innocence.

Knowledge in one of the nourishment for the ego, the most vital nourishment. The more you know, the more you feel that you are somebody. Even riches don't give that much ego, not even political power gives so much ego as knowledgeability does. And ego is the barrier to knowing.

Ego is a false phenomenon, and if we cling to it we cannot know the real. The false has to cease for the real to be, and the only way is to detach yourself from all knowledge. Yes, spiritual, esoteric, all kinds of knowledge are included in it.

One should become more and more innocent, childlike. Wondering is good, looking into existence with no idea of what it is, is good, living without conclusions is virtue.

That is the meaning of your name. You have to transform it into a reality, because this is the only key that unlocks the doors of god's temple.

This is your new name: Swami Nirguno. Nirguno is one of the names of god.

In India we have one thousand names for god. There is one scripture, Vishnu Sastranath. The whole scripture is devoted only to the names, the one thousand names of god. But each name has a beauty. It reminds you of a certain aspect.

In the East we say that god has one thousand hand, mm? -- just to signify the vastness, the multi-dimensionality of it, the infinity of it. Nirguno is one of the names. It means that god is without any attributes. Literally it means attributeless. That is the fundamental attribute, that god has not attributes. So whatever we say about him is going to be only approximately true, it can never be the truth. And approximately true simply means a beautiful way to say that it is a lie, because truth is either true or not rue.

Approximately true is not possible. Either a man is dead or alive; if you say 'approximately alive' it doesn't mean anything. Either you are in love with somebody or not. If you say 'approximately in love', that means nothing. It is simply a polite way of saying, 'Excuse me.'

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qualities. He has no form, that's why he can manifest in all kinds of forms. He is very liquid, flexible, not static, not like rock but like water. So you put it in a cup and it becomes the form of the cup, and you put in in a bottle and it takes the form of the bottle. It is very non-resistant. It is willing to take any form.

So on one hand god has no forms and on the other hand all forms are his. And both these things have to be remembered constantly so that you don't become attached to any particular form.

Christ is only a particular form... Buddha also, Krishna also. But there are people who have become attached to them. Now, there are people who are attached to Krishna, so obsessed, that they cannot think of any other manifestation of god. Buddha they will deny, Christ they will deny, Mohammed they will deny; they will say 'Krishna is the only true god.' And the same is true about the Christian.

Just the other day I saw an eighteen-page report against me published by the German Protestant Church and distributed to all the churches in Germany saying 'Beware of this man, because this man talks like Jesus, and that is dangerous. And this man should not be quoted anywhere, should not be referred to in any church, in any sermon, from any pulpit.'

Now what is the fear? The whole fear is that a few Christians may become attracted, and Christ is the only true messenger, there is no other messenger, the only begotten son of god. And what about everybody else? Are all bastards? (laughter)

In the East we are no so fanatical. All are his, all forms are his. Everybody is his son, he fathers the whole existence. He it only the father of Jesus Christ. That would be a very poor god who fathers only on son and who cannot father Buddha and who cannot father Lao Tzu and who cannot father Zarathustra. He would be a poor god. When he can father the whole existence, why make him so poor?

The report accepts that his man -- it says about me -- is extraordinary, but that is the danger! He is a human being and Jesus is god -- that difference has to be remembered.

Nobody is a human being, everybody is god!

This is your new name: Ma Veet Parad. Veet means going beyond. Parad means mercury. Mercury represents the mind. It is a metaphor for the mind because the mind is very mercurial, changing continuously. It has nothing permanent in it. Not even an iota remains the same. Not even for two consecutive moments does the mind remain the same, it is constant flux.

Because we are trying to live through the mind and we are trying to hold onto the mind, which goes on changing, we are constantly in misery. We cling to it and it slips. It is exactly like mercury.

If you don't cling to mercury you can keep it in your hand, but if you close your fist it will slip out, and once it falls onto the floor it is impossible to collect it again. We are cling to the mind so much. It goes into fragments and they all go on slipping our of our hand, and because they go on slipping, we cling even more.

And the more we cling, the more we are in misery, because all our efforts to cling are bound to be frustrated. Wee need some eternal shelter. That shelter is within you, but is is not the mind. It is the witness if the mind.

So go beyond the mind, watch the mind, destroy the identity with the mind and remind yourself again and again 'I am the watcher, I am the witness of it all. I am not it.' Slowly slowly it sinks into your being and the forgotten language is remembered again. The day you recognize absolutely, totally, that you are the witness, you have awakened from sleep. That awakening brings bliss, benediction.

This is your name: Swami Sandhano. Sandhano means the ultimate enquiry. The ultimate enquire is

'Who am I?' It is not about god, it is not about heaven and hell, it is not about past lives, it is not about ANYthing, but about yourself.

Maharishi Ramana used to give only one meditation to his disciples: Who am I? Go into this enquiry.

Watch, search, disentangle yourself from all identifications with the body and the mind. Slowly slowly you begin to see that you are not the body. You live in the body, obviously, but the body is only an abode, a caravanserai, an overnight stay

-- in the morning you go. And so is the case with the mind. It is even more fleeting than the body.

You are beyond both, and that which is beyond both is unchanging. It is the same from the very beginning , if there was any beginning, and it will remain the same to the very end, it there is going to be any end. In fact there is no beginning and no end: your being is eternal. That's what is meant when I say that you are gods,

gods who have fallen asleep. The enquiry will wake you up.

So this is going to be your meditation. Sitting, walking, go on enquiring 'Who am I?' Not verbally, not intellectually -- existentially. Watch whether you are the body. When you are hungry, watch -- are you 1/08/07

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feeling hungry or are you simply becoming aware that the body is hungry? When you have a headache watch whether you have the pain or you are just a watcher who knows that the head is suffering from pain.

And it is not difficult, slowly slowly to become aware that all these things are happening around you but you are not any of them.

That transcendence it the real experience of truth. And when you know your inner truth you become capable of knowing the truth of the whole existence. But the most fundamental step has to be taken inside yourself.

This is your new name: Ma Premgyan. Premgyan means love is true wisdom -- not logic, but love, not the head, but the heart. We are all hung up in the head and we have completely forgotten the heart. To ignore the heart is ignorance. Not to ignore the heart is wisdom. And our whole education is rooted in this strategy: it teaches people how to ignore the heart. It condemns the heart, it condemns feeling, it appreciates thinking. It is devoted to the god of logic, and logic is very poor compared to love. Logic is empty, hollow, with no soul in it, just a shadow.

It is only love that can fulfil one, it is only love that can give you authentic growth. So move from the head to the heart. That is the whole journey of sannyas.

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